force belly fire do I force you out of things? do I make you feel like you have no choice? I would never have pushed about you leaving David if didn't have really strong reasons. I have nothing against what you're doing now, I just want to hear you talk. I just like to hear the sound of your voice when you describe details. Unless he was hurting you, I would never FORCE you out of anything. If you told me that he still hadn't called or returned your messages, honestly, I wouldn't have given you advice. Don't you think that most times I ask you questions because I want you to have a chance to express yourself? So you don't have to keep everything inside? I hope you don't think I ask things so I can have a chance to shake my finger and tell you what to do. 040529 ... DammitJanet I never think that. I highly reguard your opinions and trust them. I knew things with David were bad, and i knew you'd tell me the truth and make me see what i already felt in the first place. That's all. Telling you the bad things would force me to stop ignoring them. When i finally told you a bit about how i was feeling, i had had enough, and i was finally accepting that there was no saving anything from the relationship because there was no longer anything good to save. I don't keep things from you with Darren. I understand the need to talk because i feel the exact same way. You're the first person i want to tell things to, i just didn't want to jump to conclusions too early. If there was no word on friday, i'd have called you when you got home from work to vent all i could. I want to tell you everything about Darren. I keep trying to remember everything i can so i can recount it to you later. And i want you to meet him, so you know exactly what i'm talking about, and why i get excited when i see him and talk to him on the phone. I want you to hear his famous high pitched "hi liar!" and how well he integrates simpsons quotes into his stories. "i wash myself with a rag on a stick!" I've never felt you've forced me into or out of anything. Most times i think of you as my Jimminy Cricket, always making me think of other options and hear the other side of the story. When i'm lost, you're my Reason. 040529 ... Q The goal of the game is to apply equal force in opposite directions on the string, but not force so strong that the string snaps. 041223 what's it to you? who go blather from