shame
kyla This morning, I found I couldn't squash a beetle without first apologizing to it. 040427
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native persimmon I can't understand why I invited you to visit-
I must have known after paying for dinner you'd reserve the right to tease out my anguish only so that you might call me frivolous and guffaw. I can't understand why you would belittle what you claim as your own creation, nor quite how you can love me but not what I am, or how, when we share so little, impatience is in equal parts and spread all around.
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kerry sometimes i think i should quit calling her because when i do she says
call your father he misses you
i saythe last time we spoke he seemed to think everything was fine
she sighs and says that my hunch is probably right
but it isn’t a hunch, i don’t think

it is like peeking under a rock, seeing what you can’t unsee
and what’s done cannot be undone, what’s said cannot be unsaid
what could have happened now never will
i want to ask things of him he can’t deliver

he says in his brittle voice "sorry i’m not the person you want me to be"
i could say the same to you (and sometimes i do)
yeah it’s a shame,
a crying shame
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tender_square "shame derives its power from being unspeakable. that's why it loves perfectionists--it's so easy to keep us quiet."

brené brown, "daring greatly"
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