unsaid anouk I've realised - it's not because I'm afraid (I am, but that's not the reason) I haven't told him because although I may be able to say it right then, in the moment, and really not need or want him to say it back, I'm not strong enough for that to last long. If he didn't say it back, I'd be lucky to last maybe a week. Probably more like an hour. Or a few minutes. I truly want him to know, without putting the pressure on him to say it back. So I try to say it every day, in 10 other ways, without saying the words that can mean so much and can mean all the wrong things. 090713 what's it to you? who go blather from