spring daxle I need your new green I need your calm breeze I'll open my chest and let you in 020207 ... jolie My mental state is awlays worst in the spring....that's bakwards, isn't it? Alot of it has to do with school, because by spring time I've become fed up with it all. But this is going to be my last rocky springtime, because I get out of highschool and all its stupid drama...it means nothing to me, but its all around me....dragging me under its depths while I'm screaming and trying to claw my way to the surface, but no matter how I try to fight it, I'm suked in, for it is my world. 030421 ... tilt snowdrops are peeking out. in fact they've been here for a while. daffodils haven't flowered yet, but they will soon. the rain is different. it's still cold most days, but the temperature is growing warmer on average. life is indeed everywhere. everything is squishy and wet. 060214 ... tilt the first daffodils flowered not too long ago. and crocuses, too. the world is pretty. 060321 ... tilt the first truly warm day for some time. it's been too long. 060422 ... no reason it's so much more frustrating to be constantly sick when the weather is this nice 080417 ... unhinged she's been trying. too good to last though. it's only early march in wisconsin. i will bet money old man winter dumps at least one more snow on our heads before he's chased out of town for now. overall, this winter wasn't bad. i finally figured out how to use a bus schedule to my advantage and there was much less snow, after december anyways. always stirs feelings of death in me. never really felt like a beginning. just an ending. she died in the spring. easter. moving back home for the summer. the dropping of petals to make way for leaves. 090306 ... no reason it's so beautiful out today that i ate lunch on a patio on march 6 on a patio it's a record 090306 ... unhinged i had to wait for the plumber and now i don't know how long it will take so i'm not sure if i will be able to get out in this beautiful day. i do want to go sit on a patio somewhere. *sigh* 090306 ... unhinged it's warm enough for flip flops today. i should go outside. part of me just wants to lay in bed. 090317 ... gja And just like that it is here...sprung. This year uncannily occuring at the equinox. Swimming without shivers. Folks in the sun; Music and beer in the backyard. Everyone smiling guiltily - Is this lack of restraint improper? What did the winter hide? 100925 ... raze i had to change into shorts this afternoon. i don't care what my calendar says. it doesn't matter that it'll be chilly again tomorrow. spring_begins today. 220317 ... kerry poppies and cornflowers are sprouting on the windowsill neighbors are chatting outside again, holding shopping bags in their arms behind the dense fog is sunshine, still gentle 220318 what's it to you? who go blather from