vile insouciant Outstretched wretched reach Blur just far enough Cemented in fury Sustained, despair Intake inflated hope Press at the gate Elastic convex cage Release ready escape Useless Unbound acceptance Vile vial 220718 ... Bizzar the taste of the memories that should be long dead. like rot and rust and shame. bubbling up in the back of my throat choking it up to let it decay at my feet. his voice is still loud. his arms are still strong. his influence still urging me to push everyone away. save them all from the chaos inside my head. isolation. no one but him. vile is not a word that comes close to the feeling in my gut when the spiral overtakes me. all black and empty and pain. 220719 ... tender_square "you've never worked a day in your life, you've ridden on dad's coattails." "you're keeping me from getting to work and my patients will suffer, people who are literally dying. i hope you're real fucking proud of yourself." "you're a fucking liar. i can't believe that you're reneging on this shit. i've given you everything." "i guess i need to drink to transmission fluid in order to get your attention." 230211 what's it to you? who go blather from