your_apology Sonya Your apology is meaningless. Do you really think saying "I'm sorry" would ever make up for the damage you've done? Are you that foolish? Maybe I should just ask if you're insane. "I'm sorry" doesn't take back all the seemingly good things you said to me or seemingly stood for. "I'm sorry" doesn't dispel my shock and disbelief at the fact that you are a LIAR and always were one. "I'm sorry" certainly doesn't change the fact that you are so self-absorbed that you would be willing to neglect your friends, and throw away people who love you in order to figure out what you "can be to people". Your apology has no weight behind it. "I'm sorry" doesn't change the fact that nothing is sacred to you. You apparently have no problem taking what was sacred to us and to me and using it with another person. "I'm sorry" doesn't take back all the secrets we shared, nor does it make our passionate memories disappear. "I'm sorry" doesn't make me automatically stop loving you, nor does it make me more able to forgive you. "I'm sorry" can't help me to cry because of what you've done to me. I bleed, I hurt, and now I can't trust because of you. You killed me inside. You say you're sorry for hurting me, but really you only say that to make yourself feel better. To hell with you. You have no right to expect any forgiveness from me. People like you do not deserve to be loved because you dispose of it without any remorse. I should be the one to apologize. I'm sorry I ever met you. I'm sorry I let myself fall in love with you as you fell in love with me. I'm sorry I was willing to throw everything away just for YOU. My apologies fall on deaf ears. Your apology is heard but it doesn't change a damn thing. "I'm sorry" doesn't change the fact that you just don't know who you are, and maybe you never will because you run from your problems. No matter how many times you say "I'm sorry" I will never forget. The man I fell in love with is no longer alive and I don't know who you are anymore. Why don't you apologize for taking his place? 011106 ... whoknows exactly. word for word. 011106 ... unhinged your apology ran like blood drops down my spine 011106 ... Aimee I'm sorry Sonya.... most of this is my fault anyways.. 011107 ... Sonya Aimee, none of it is your fault at all. Please don't even think that. Yikes, in reading over what I wrote last night at a rather insane hour I can see I was totally angry. *sigh* Anyway, things just work out the way they do because that's how it's supposed to be I guess. Bobby introduced you two to each other, and he's a very good friend. I hope Logan is happy and I hope he's not as confused now and knows what he is doing for your sake especially. I can't really believe I'm saying this, but I do want him to be happy even though I have trouble understanding his actions. You probably hate me, and I expect that. Take care of him if you can. He's quite different now than he was before. Be careful too. 011107 ... . .. 011107 ... music fan allllllllll apologiiiiiiies... 011107 ... sabbie unhinged, i think i was in a mirrored scene that night. the blood pooled in the small of my back and ran down my hips. it was so cold, little ice rivlets snarling down my skin. and i lay, frozen on the ground that night while the moon was looking the other way and my horror was a knot inside me that didnt allow me to speak as you mouthed those words that were fraying and tattered with use. 020113 ... cube See how Sonya calmed right down after venting her spleen like that? She is proof positive of the therapeutic benefits of blathing. And now, a word from our sponsor... ³ 020113 ... cube See how Sonya calmed right down after venting her spleen like that? She is proof positive of the therapeutic benefits of blathing. And now, a word from our sponsor... ³ 020113 ... ClairE You looked at me, and even though it was dark, I saw your eyes staring. "I'm sorry," you said. It was the most forceful you'd ever been. Your eyes were shouting. It made me feel better. 020114 ... unhinged doesn't change what you did doesn't change how it made me feel doesn't take away all the tears i've cried doesn't mitigate the fact that i feel like i can't talk to you anymore about the stuff that really matters (although i guess i never really felt like i could since the day you ran away from me for it) 100821 ... unhinged . doesn't mean much when the actions don't align with the words 130612 ... a thimble in time Can there be forgiveness without forgetfulness? 130613 what's it to you? who go blather from