one_time_a_year peyton i'm still alive -- in a different place.. in a different space.. but still alive 071008 ... hee hee ! who are you ? my cherry popper ? 071008 ... peyton still alive 080517 ... fuffle oh you didn't kill yourself then? oh good for you. 080517 ... peyton early this year 090109 ... peyton into your hands i commend my spirit 100206 ... peyton Hi there. I hope you're doing okay. I really do. 120107 ... peyton I wish I had something more poignant to say than.. "I wish I hadn't missed 2011." 130420 ... peyton I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't. 140328 ... peyton He was half-turned now, not facing the littered field. His bow was in his hands; his dark hair was thrown back; and his face reflected his exultant delight. Lelldorin would always remember him so. 150424 ... peyton “Promise to give me a kiss on my brow when I am dead. --I shall feel it." She dropped her head again on Marius' knees, and her eyelids closed. He thought the poor soul had departed. Eponine remained motionless. All at once, at the very moment when Marius fancied her asleep forever, she slowly opened her eyes in which appeared the sombre profundity of death, and said to him in a tone whose sweetness seemed already to proceed from another world:-- "And by the way, Monsieur Marius, I believe that I was a little bit in love with you.” 160226 ... unhinged . wishes it was more than once a year 160226 ... peyton “Just remember that the things you put into your head are there forever, he said. You might want to think about that. You forget some things, dont you? Yes. You forget what you want to remember and you remember what you want to forget.” ― Cormac McCarthy, The Road 170119 ... peyton Your fingertips across my skin The palm trees swaying in the wind Images You sang me Spanish lullabies The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick Well, I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you Should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do We walked along a crowded street You took my hand and danced with me Images And when you left, you kissed my lips You told me you would never, never forget These images Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you Should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind So you're gone and I'm haunted And I bet you are just fine Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out Of my life? Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you Should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do 180102 ... jane my brother decides to grace us with his presence for a few hours. he lives approximately two hours away, so i blame his lack of visiting on some pompousness that seems to be the virus of Frisco living. this last_year, he asked me if i would want to visit him in "the_city" sometime. i gave him a meh kind of answer, the kind that's a nice way of saying hell no, and thought to myself, that's not the only city. we live in a city too. 180105 ... peyton I'm not sure I've ever really known anyone. 190401 ... dafremen Interestingly enough, neither do they. But even more to the point..there isn't really anyone to know but everyone at once. 190401 ... dafremen Throughout the year, I observe how this meat puppet has changed. It seems so long ago that the hands were much smaller and the veins less pronounced. The eyes haven;t changed, but everything else have. You know how they say that eyes are the window to the soul? They don't change unless the world does..that's what I've noticed. 190407 ... peyton I guess we all lost something in 2020. 210720 ... peyton You're long gone. But I still think about you. By now I hope you know you found a vampire. I can't be sorry for it. But I'm sorry for your hurt. I hope you know I did love you. I do love you. And I will carry you forever. 220525 ... peyton i was deliberate about 2023. I really was. I haven't gone anywhere. Holy shit I must have been the biggest believer in the past ever. It's like clothes for me now. Hey, you know what? I'm fucking sorry. Okay? Are you fixed now? I'm sure as shit not. I'm committed. I'm as aloof as ever. I'm forever out to sea in a little boat made of reeds. I'm poison. Why won't you come back? 241008 what's it to you? who go blather from