missing_friend jennifer Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I thought of you And turned to the gate On my way came up with the answers I scratched my head And the answers were gone From hand to hand Wrist to the elbow Red blood sand Could Dad be God Crosses cross hung out like a wet rag Forgive you why You hung me out to dry Maybe I'm crazy But laughing out loud Makes the pain pass by And maybe you're a little crazy But laughing out loud makes it all subside Holding I'm holding I'm still falling Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I thought of this And turned to the gate But on my way Crack Lightning and thunder I hid my head And the storm slipped away Well maybe I'm crazy And laughing out loud Makes it all pass by And maybe you're a little crazy And laughing out loud Makes it all alright Laughing out loud From time to time Minutes and hours Some move ahead while Some lag behind It's like the balloon that Rise and then vanish This drop of hope That falls from his eyes Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I think of this And turn to go away But as I walk There're voices behind me saying Sinners sin Come now and play for you, my friend whomever you are you were nice while you lasted 000830 ... girl i try so hard to trust a person that i like a lot and become close friends. its happened 3 times now. i have a great close friend and i tell her things that i cant tell anyone else but cant keep to myself. then she betrays my trust and it hurts so much. surely a true close friend wouldnt do that to me. then i have another close friend. we hang out and do art together and she tells me things and we understand eachother. i didnt think anyone could betray me worse than the last time until she did. ruined my life enough to make me have to move out and my boy to leave town. then i remembered my old close friends from long ago. the ones i haven seen in a while. we had great times together. had. i had missed his wedding and that had distanced us so much that we are now aquaintences. my boy has friends. i guess their my friends too. i try to judge if i have a friend if i miss them when their gone. i dont think i would miss his friends. i like them but im not very close to them at all. i think a friend is someone you can just hang out with or you can talk to, i mean really talk to. a friend is someone u can trust and they can trust you. if everyone is supposed to have one really good friend, mine is missing. 000919 ... silentbob i look to where yoou used to be but you are not there where have you gone? he says just out of nowhere you started to fight. and now you are gone. you should come back, because i got along better than he did with you. come back 000920 ... firehunden friends? what is a friend? what is a true friend? or a close friend? someone you trust? someone to share with? a compatible someone? is friendship an absolute? or just shades of grey? I do not think that I have any friends, at least not in person. I do not trust. I have people that I know, and that I knew. I can trust a person to be human, but not much more. I might trust someone that I have experience with, in away that will not hurt me. " Will you pick me up some pepsi while you are at the store?,....... thanks " If that person does not come through for me then I have not been hurt. I do not trust people. People lie. I lie. You lie. It cannot be argued, we all lie, even if it is only to ourselves. It is because of this that I do not trust. It is because of this that I have no friends. I know people. Some people I tolerate, some I don't. I only tolerate people who can tolerate me. I have no missing friends. I have lost track of people that I used to tolerate. 010225 ... unhinged i was reading something yesterday i wrote awhile ago. at one time, i thought i would never be able to live without you. i just laughed when i read that. now sometimes i wish that i had never met you. 010311 ... mikey i would consider many on blather my friend. hell ive shared more in a few days then many who know me in person have no clue about. that counts for something. to me it does anyway. 010311 ... kx21 Given Friend = (Alien + soul mate ) / 2 What is missing? 010311 ... mikey i plead the 5th on this one. i'll allow someone else the chance to answer..... 010311 ... kx21 ( Blue + Red ) / 2... 010311 ... kx21 What is the color for missing_friend? 010311 ... monadh aren't we all missing 010312 ... kx21 Blank... 010312 ... dB If you are talking colour intenisties, I think the end product is a dark pink. 010312 ... cali j $25,000 reward Have you seen.... I miss you sooooooo much 010512 ... -elle the color of missing_friend is brown a lonely brown, brown pining and sinking and remembering. brown was his (unspoken) favorite color his (unrecognized) halo his (unconcentrated) silence brown is the expression of my dependence on him. now there is no friend, no friendly brown. lonely brown. 030619 what's it to you? who go blather from