beauty_in_repetition ClairE Thank_you, life. 031126 ... unhinged that's the only way i can get to it, but damnit sometimes i just want to throw my violin out the window. if only my body and mind would seamlessly work together to get out what i hear in my head. if only it wasn't work. but i'm still looking for beauty in repetition, slowly finding. *sigh* if only 031126 ... stork daddy you'll never know if you're forgiven unless you confess, never know you're accepted unless you are exposed. a temporary understanding in a sea of misses. 031126 ... magicforest I swear to god I started this at the pretty_girls blathe. Beauty in repetition. 031126 ... magicforest I swear to god I started this at the pretty_girls blathe. Beauty in repetition. 031126 ... magicforest I swear to god I started this at the pretty_girls blathe. Beauty in repetition. 031126 ... endless desire you you you you you you i want to live in the amazon. 031126 ... monadh the human heart sings listen to it you can hear sickness breathes repetition i saw it on tv you should watch the show sometime some time if it repeats it will be beautiful it is beautiful it was beautiful my heart flutters goes jaboom my pulse it sounds each note the same old song same old song old same song it is a sign i know the warnings by their labels if you listen to a dying heart an old heart a sick heart it is likely to be with repetition filled with repetition filled with repetition with repetition filled 031127 ... time_warp beautiful, monadh. 031127 ... mon thanks time_warp i think i've used some of the words here before i wrote this i guess i should look back and read the things i've done i'm always repeating myself repeating myself always 031127 ... misstree sometimes the dance is shown where the circle deviates into spirals. 031127 ... wingedSerpent i've been running 'round in circles 'til i've worn a trench in my path... feel free to shovel it over, i'll have reached china by then 031127 ... Piso Mojado steve reich- 'music for 18 musicians' 040515 ... notme lilacs 040516 ... pete watching the faces as i am driven by, they scream 'car wash' loud and hard, the trees wave in the breeze knowing that what can be doesn't always matter dandilions colour the ground they give me something to look at now houses rich houses finely mowed and fertilized lawns so boring so dull now farm lands a man working his fields just across the road from the city, holding on to his life just outside the city limits more houses more screaming girls who want to was this car i ride in more rich houses with their ugly monotone lawns more spoiled children driving child sized cars unaware of the impending peak which the gas station warns us about so softly. life moves by in beautiful repetition. i get home. i enter my basement, my apartment. i eat dinner get lost in a book find a common ground with the empitness of each character, hwi leto duncan modeno that girl whose name i forget the pretty one, or atleast whose description makes me think 'pretty' i play a computer game, i look at my phone, i sit there in silence all alone seeking the beauty in this repetition reheated food leftovers from last night i examine the cuts on my hands from cleaning easedrops at work only one day of work in three weeks there is no beauty in the repetition of unemployed life but school starts tomorrow it will fill three hours a night it will fill many hours of reading many hours of thought of human contact of not being so alone. i challenge myself to hold out to wait and wait and wait but i fear waiting will only lead me down further further to where i dont want to go, to that aloneness where there is nothing else but i wait and wait opening and closing my hand, to see how the cuts hurt thinking about ammons' poetry thinking about life and love and all assortments of things kirt can't die unless he is alone, i can't die while alone i find beauty in repetition of hope 040516 ... unhinged every time i read (re-read ?) ammons i find more beauty in it something about his effortless but accurate description of life that lets me find more in it the more that i've lived a grandfather imparting his sullen and wise and sarcastically humourous knowledge to the disciple that would sit and read (re-read?) his ticker tape tomes glare i think that's my favorite one for the beauty in repetition new underlines in as many different colored inks as i've read it pen in hand and i see new lines it's been awhile a nice little summer project to re-read my modern bible glare by ammons 040517 ... zeke water falls in silence 040517 ... z water falls in silence 040517 ... zeke water falls in silence 040517 ... zeke water falls in silence 040517 ... z water falls in silence 040517 ... Piso Mojado circumambulation 040517 ... i ? 040518 ... zeke silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... z silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... zeke silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... z silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... z silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... z silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... zeke silence raining on my eyes 040804 ... (z) (silence raining on my eyes) 040804 ... kookaburra ballet 040804 ... mourninglight "how uniform, your beautiful is.." 041030 ... () under no cast silence 050126 ... () silence under no cast 050126 ... (z) cast silence no under 050126 ... zeke no under cast silence 050126 ... mp21k "Nature love to Copy_and_Paste..." 050126 ... via phantom_words_and_other_curiosities... 050126 ... stork daddy huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? HUH? huh? huh? huh? 050127 ... phil sticks and stones broke by bones lost my seat coming home sit on the phone ball in the stone crack in the foam not going home roman dome 050127 ... nom i repeat myself all the time 060120 ... mourninglight what you said, say it again I love your voice 080526 ... mourninglight what you thought think it again, I love your voice 080526 ... mourninglight but your silence is exquisite 080526 ... unhinged mantra_of_the_year 080527 ... you are you are you are you_are_forgiven 080527 what's it to you? who go blather from