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psyki :you are as beautiful now as you were then.

"g%/؃_f~|4+-*[d={E"

:that's how confused i am right now.

:you still love me, don't you?

:thoughts, emotions, hopes, fears.

:how can i forget about you?

:a long converstation.

:why do i always want what i can't have?

:you were in my dreams last night.

:i woke up smiling.
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Zoe 16, it seems so young now. i remember when i was that age. i never thought i fit in. i think i was like a thirty year old in a 16 year old's body. 000718
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birdmad 1988

catholic_school
the beginning of senior year

after a year of tripping over the words, telling my best friend that i was in love with her only to have it result in the longest case of the silent treatment i have endured to date

a friend of a friend introduced me to sex drugs and rock n roll

(Here's to crime)

My first CD player, The Smiths "Rank" and Depeche Mode "some great reward"
and of course, the Cure (any of it, all of it)

watching the ravages of cancer and chemotherapy take its toll on my father, reducing him from a precursor of the man i would grow to resemble to a ragged, frail shell of that man

no, not a good age
but i miss it anyway
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unhinged may i feel said he
(i'll squeal said she
just one said he)
it's fun said she

(may i touch said he
how much said she
a lot said he)
why not said she

(let's go said he
not too far said she
what's too far said he
where you are said she)

may i stay said he
(which way said she
like this said he
if you kiss said she

may i move said he
is it love said she)
if you're willing said he
(but you're killing said she

but it's life said he
but your wife said she
now said he)
ow said she

(tiptop said he
don't stop said she
oh no said he)
go slow said she

(cccome?said he
ummm said she)
you're divine!said he
(you are Mine said she)

e.e. cummings
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Norm I've been this old for a while now. 010826
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adelaide ...sweet 16 they say...

... bittersweet 16 ...
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saken_zero i'm unofficial and meaningless,. what the fuck does anyone care what i have to say, but i'd love to know you, critisixe and show you what doesn't exist, analyize and piss on my erronous ways as i bow for days to another internet member.. figure out my gender what the hell do you care, medicate and impare my thoughts when i'm sober and that's never... what the hell do i know. i've you linked from my site. if this bothers you, let me know. 030301
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nomatter now your finally sixteen
and you're feeling old
but they wont believe
that you got a soul
cause your only sixteen
and your feeling real
but you cant seem to cop a feel
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Amy Im 15 Hey Nick this is Amy Im looking for A boyfriend who will love and care for me and I would do anything for a guy especially someone like you nick I love you please email me back if you want to date me Im really looking forward to talking to you 030929
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Amy Im 15 This is a sweet
15 year old girl who a dores boys my age also I think boyz are really smart and I would really like one because they are so awsome
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kimmyness oh so over-rated. but hell, it's time to party. 040622
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chloeNtheSUN i'd love to exist as anything else 040623
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anne-girl i made new friends this year
had my favorite year of school so far
became happier (i think)
a good year all around
yay for 16!
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. I remember when I was 30 in a 16 year old's body - schleeeerrrrrp 050629
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rage childhood innocence and old cold bitterness come crashing together in that frail disproportionate body
the idealist dreamer child fights against the reasonable hopeless adult
she just wants to fall into depression over how horrible the world is
but she knows that wont help her
she wants to lose weight
but she knows shes not fat
growing up sucks
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iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl it has been interesting thus far;

i feel so much different.
like i finally have the ability to change things for myself, rather than to be restricted and have my world altered around me.

but there's just too much nihilism, apathy and too much goddamn repetitive pain and shit to even go into.

i'm sick of the same old scenarios.

but i'm afraid and hurt by the new ones.

but change is inevitable, so while i delude myself and envision people in my ideals for them, life changes really slowly around me, so that i only notice that shit's fucked when it's too late to prevent it. kinda like global warming.
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