i_don't_want_to_die notme i don't want to die i don't want to die i don't want to die i don't want to die i don't want to die i don't want to die i don't want to die . 040622 ... oldephebe what is going on nomme? is it a health issue? 040622 ... puredream Then don't. 040622 ... daxle there are times when i've shouted this over and over in hopes of convincing myself "then don't" it's not that simple 040622 ... smurfus rex I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all... 040622 ... daxle carry on, carry on... 040622 ... a little silhouetto of a bird as if nothing really mattered 040622 ... stork daddy to me 040622 ... puredream Everything is that simple. We choose to make it otherwise. Life is simple. We've made our own lives complex. Simplicites exist we just choose to argue with them. 040622 ... oE nicely put - puredream 040623 ... notme the words of Kim Sun-Il, the beheaded south korean hostage in iraq, keep repeating over and over in my head, over and over and over again. that's what sparked this blathe, but i was also thinking of myself. health issues, um yes. thanks for asking. i'll be fine,... it's probably nothing. i just have too much fear. 040623 ... oE fear can be toxic...um forgive the intrusion but do you have access to a Healer..a kind of holistic pratitioner who preferably is female and an MD as well? ... 040623 ... notme i have a good doctor, a great doctor. i just don't like the thought of seeing any doctors at the moment. thanks again for your concern oe, it is appreciated. i can't really think about this anymore. i've gotta go plant some peas or do something else fun and simple for a while. peace_and_love 040623 ... minnesota_chris america spends all its time avoiding death, and not much time thinking of how to live. Our cat died today. I'm going to remember how he liked eating and scratches, and not be quite so sorry and wishing he was still alive. Death is part of life. 040623 ... JdAwG Death is the end of life. It is merely and ending to what you know now as life. And it is quite possibly a new beginning as well, depending on your beliefs. It shouldn't scare you, it should motivate you. 040624 ... tessa i'm so scared 040625 ... ivyducktwilightseto Well you’ll tell me this and I’ll smile I know the secret that no one knows They’re all so afraid of what is beyond They curl up and say they don’t want to die But you see I’m a little wiser I have figured it out I see the big picture I have discovered That in these things that I do And what I say I will instill my memory in your head And in that memory I will live And passed around I shall be For when I am gone My memory will remain And because of this I will live forever! I’m gonna live forever!!! 040626 ... birdmad ... but outside of a few scattered, here-and-there moments, i've never really been all that excited about living either. 040626 ... tyler waters i wouldn't even mind.. like some bengal tiger just eats my head in a flash.. who would notice? quick and (relativly) painless. that's where it's at. 040926 ... god tough shit. 040926 ... monee i don't i don't i don't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 041230 ... () () 041230 ... zanna you must find a vampire! we all must! 050712 ... andru235 is it that you don't want to die, or is it that you don't want to be re-born? 050712 ... anne-girl i don't want to die because la_vita_e_bella and death is empty 050712 ... Woody I'm not afraid of dying. I just don't want to be there when it happens. 060225 ... Arwyn But I welcome it. 060226 ... LS I don't want to die...not now, not like this... What have I done? What will I leave behind? What kind of person was I? How much did I waste? Who will remember what I have seen? What good was I? I don't want to die a child. I'm so sorry. I didn't respect any of you enough. 060226 ... smurfus rex You could pour water on it and make it worse OR you can pour vinegar on it and neutralize the burn. But first you have to know, not fear, KNOW, that someday you're going to die. 060621 ... pete i just want to ride on my motorcy..........cle 060621 ... the awful truth the will inside the body breaks upon the sight of grids and structure the buildings rising from the street, beautiful architecture i walk around at nights, trying to make connections end up alone and whining, pining for my lost affections i never know what to expect from the subway in the early morning but i don't want to fight. i know i never know just exactly what the fuck to say but i still want to write. and i know that when i go i don't want to see the red come i want to see the light i know i know the day is coming and it's gonna happen but i sure don't wanna die. i wonder late at night in twisted sheets the questions of our time philosophically we wax and moan we're sure there's meaning we can find we're fuckin positive there's a big reason for us to live but nothing's come to mind i swear to god, the fuck he is, we're animals no doubt fuck. give birth. then die. i never know what to expect from the subway in the early morning but i don't want to fight. i know i never know just exactly what the fuck to say but i still want to write. and i know that when i go i don't want to see the red come i want to see the light i know i know the day is coming and it's gonna happen but i sure don't wanna die. 060621 ... stork daddy aww man, then don't die. still beyond me how anyone would know enough to want or not want to die. 060622 ... the awful truth don't die? don't die? how the fuck do you do that. how the fuck are you gonna not die. please. enfuckinglighten me. 060622 ... stork daddy aww you're thinking too literal daddy-o. but seriously, relax. i mean, i was obviously serious. 060622 ... stork daddy although i hear juniper berries and kix are a good place to start. also stretch for fifteen minutes each day. 060622 ... tessa and she said to me "I was really surprised to realise that i don't want to die. I'm not sure what it means." It means you have faith. Faith that there is something worth living for. 060924 ... . . 120722 what's it to you? who go blather from