meditation number 13614 010727 ... phil you can see your reflection is just about anything. 020805 ... phil fill the glass using a straw, blowing water from your mouth. To fill the glass you must remove the straw. 020904 ... x breathe in your nose while breathing out the straw 020904 ... ~gez~ sitting cross legged with one foot ontop of the opposite thigh, and the other foot wrapped round to be ontop of its opposite thigh. hands resting on shoes in an upside-down okay position. the lotus position this is how its done 020905 ... everythingisfine is the process of searching for a interlaying connection with the universe 040716 ... hsg or to unconnect so as to freely re-realize all connection possibilities. kill brain go insane mind dead will ahead don't mind the freedom of undoing all your security wash your straight jacket sanitize your mold let go conviction openness unfolds 040920 ... hsg lotus position nothing left nothing right it's all good in the hood duality died in as word figh tonight desire sober hunger's hungover empty insight rest in middle all that's left is right spinning the world's music of these fears is silenced to night 040920 ... How can * Manjusri's_Gatha_Teaching * Meditation on the nose is only an expedient Means to control the mind by fixing it for the moment, But wrong dwelling can create an illusory abode. this be used to achieve perfection? 050419 ... the awful truth when we met cigarette fingers cold in the wind and you walked me to that bench where i stopped but walked in the wind and looked back at me and i thought, "beautiful. kindred soul. and i know you inside and out, i dont care what you hold in your head the past is dead. You are what you are you are what you make yourself. and now oh, i'm so intense oh, you're so serene oh you're so convinced that i'm oh so wrong you knew all along just what's right with me well, get this: that's some shit. i don't know what you think about me or this life or these choices we make but get this. this is it. this is one shot you got and i'm watching you blowing it. well maybe one day this will all make some sense you'll be thinking the same but looking so different the lies that you've been beaten with by the life that you hold so dear to your side will finally break and rain down on you and i could be there, to pull you through. well maybe, sweet child, your mind is like mine, and you hate what you see in me, yet feel it inside. and maybe, sweet baby, i'm a little too dark for you right now because you've ripped apart this "self" from your self, and you hold it up high, and you look at me, knowing, and you smile, and die. and maybe you might comprehend these letters, these verses i send and maybe one day you'll see that i know what you need and i need you to see and maybe you might understand that this whole thing is rigged, there IS a master plan but it's not what you think, it's not rigged by the gods it's nature, it's omens, it's risks, and it works. and maybe you might realize maybe that day will arrive where we'll live and forgive and forget but till then i'm just holding my breath. when i stand on the roof looking down through the fog at the people below on the street what i see? a reflection of something that i'll never be, in my mirror, in my head, there are thoughts that you'd think drive me crazy, instead, keep me whole, help me see that everyone's different, but you, and but me, and everyone cares and everyone fights and everyone drinks till they fall but i look in your eyes, and i see me, and then, i understand it all. and maybe you might realize maybe that day will arrive where we'll live and forgive and forget but till then i'm just holding my breath. 061018 ... unhinged basking in the glow the thought of you makes in my heart, fully present in the happiness you make in me, you are my newest meditation. 061019 what's it to you? who go blather from