here_i_go_again falling_alone i'm ranting again...about him... . . . What is it that he wants? His arms are outstretched. Oh no... here he comes. becky! his vioce is a bit drawled out. He's still coming towards me. I refuse to hug him. argh... -noooo. my face scrunched up as I tried to dodge his arms. becky. his vioce now takes on a bit of a pleading tone mixed with a touched of confusion. -noooo...i dodge his arms again and act as if I'm doggy-paddling above water to keep him away. i hid behind jillian so he wouldn't try to hug me again. I'd like my space from him, and he knows I don't like him. Jill assured me that he has to know that I don't. Then why the hell can't he move on. I already have...well, it's not like i was deeply attached to him in the first place, and its not like we qualified as a steady couple. A few hugs (from him), a couple of pecks on the cheek, and one atrocious first date is all that happended. Although he did expect more. i was rather shocked. his words when IM-ing me. u r the first girl to EVER resist me in the movie theater. His ego is just way to inflated w/ most girls, i end up making mad love to them (w/ their clothes on of course)...Isnt he romantic... I don't enjoy talking to this boy... he makes me feel 10 years older. I'm supposed to be the immature one! hmm..... then i'll grow my hair as long as moses! then u won't be able to resist me! -i'm sure ill find some way. I reply. oh no u won't! i almost had u at the movies! really? hahaha! I don't believe he realizes how much this amused me. here is where I become confused. - ur just a horney little grrrrrrrrrrr i dont like u! grrrrrr... i managed to restrain my self from calling him a bastard -steve said he tried to unbutton ur pants... is this true becky. I am told this by Janaury, who he mistakenly spills all his dirty ickle secrets to. well, at one point i did -pervert come on, it's perfectley normal behavior i assure u...I am far from reassured... I ended up blocking him. He has a picture of me. One that January gave to him. It's disturbing; she tried to take it back from him but he had a death grip on it and even when mike ganged up on him he would not relenquish the picture. I'm not his girlfriend nor i never considered myslef to be, nor will i ever! I want him to understand that. Perhaps trying to get me back just makes it all the more fun. Do you think its ironic that him throwing himself at me is just making him less desireable? Irony is not my strong point. C'est pas mon fort... my balls hurt. he impresses me so much with his conver sational skills online. In real life, he acts as though hes forgotten the conversation from the night before and of course everything will be "fine and dandy" in school the next day. Please tell me all guys are not like this. Okay, I know there are some great guys. But he...he isn't making me think too highly of the teenage male population... i believe this is my longest blather yet 031206 ... Jane Doe But now it is out for everyone to see, even if you don't know them. Which is what you might be looking for? Feedback. Excellent. Forgive me if I was mistaken. 031207 ... unhinged yeah, me too unhingeddilemma_help sam god....blah cry whine blah self_disgust i really fucking hate myself for shit like this 031207 ... Mandijabster well, "he" just completed reading your long blather. His response: Oh well, whatever. I still say she's gay. He's quite mad we dont find him hot. He wants to know why we look down on his looks. (perhaps for christmas, we should buy him a present. a mirror perhaps?) I want to make a site...oh dirty one. I say we post the boys picture...great quotes coming from his mouth..and ask people what they think. I think I should do that as my web design project...but I dont want to fail so I think not! I still want that t-shirt though, to show my non-supportness of "him". This is going to be a fun year. me and becky are the perfect couple...jill said so, and shes smart so she must be right. but, we're not "gay"...nor "lethbianth" so, oh well. 031211 ... lg trying to pull the knife out of my back 110224 ... unhinged being the fucking idiot that listens to you when you won't let me air out my feelings too 110224 what's it to you? who go blather from