miscellaneous_ramblings bandersnatch goddamnfuckshitcrapmotherfuckerwhorebitchshitkickmyass on thursday i turn in the application. on friday i have the interview. on saturday my 2nd interview is changed to sunday. on sunday i have 2nd interview. get along great with each manager. am told they will call after 6 with news of rather or not i got the job. i sit by the phone from 6 to 11. monday sit by phone from 10:00 AM till 6:00 PM. no calls from them. i need a job. i cant even get a demeaning job at a crappy assed fast food joint. goddamnfuckshitcrapmotherfuckerwhorebitchshitkickmyass 031222 ... notme frig i need a new name and a new life 031222 ... bandersnatch see, now i feel like an ass. as i was online wallowing in self pitty about not being able to get a job, the place did call (i have dialup, 28.8 weep for me children, so it busied my line) to offer me the job. i checked the messages and called him back and it starts in a few weeks, so now i am not afraid to use my student loan money for a computer and car repairs. moral of the story? have patence and everything will turn out ok. 031223 ... endless desire they don't seem so miscellaneous if you put them under a title. 031223 ... bandersnatch last night ( new_year's_eve ) i went to this house concert at my dad's friend's house in the country. i heard some of the coolest stories there. the most impressive one, i think, is that my dad met a new "friend" (he meets the weirdest people where ever he goes) at a bar. this guy has no arms but can drive himself around, he pours his own beer, and he smokes (but needs someone to light it first). the coolest thing about him is that he is currently on probation for STEALING A TELEVISION!! i also heard about this time a few years ago when he was at this bar talkign to this guy because he kept buying him drinks. when last call came dad told the guy that "your too drunk to drive home so we should share a cab and come stay with me at my place and then take another cab back here to get your car in the morning." the guy accepted. later that night (About 3 or 4 in the morning) dads girlfriend gets out of bed to go to the bathroom but hears snoring comming from the living room. she goes to check it out and sees some guy she has never met sleeping bare_ass_naked on her couch. she goes and wakes up dad and asks who the hell is sleeping on the couch sans-cloths. dad then goes in the living room, wakes the guy up, and sais "you told me to wake you up early to go to work." the guy looks at dad and replies "did we have sex last night?" even though i hear all the cool stories about my dad at these gatherings, there is alwase a moment of unease atleast once a day, when one of the old people (i use it lovingly) brings out the pipe and passes it around and in genral course of conversation me and dad lock eyes. this is akward(sp?) because he cant smoke (but wants to) because his son is there, and i cant smoke (but want to) because my dad is there. damn i love all those people there. 040101 ... bndersnatch i hate being right. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. my theory of crushes is that once i talk to any one i have a thing for, i learn that they are either not all that bright or is an ass. the new girl at work, even though she is very polite, fits this patern perfectly. there are exceptions, but she is a lesbian. 040130 ... Doar hehe 040130 ... bandersnatch i feel like i need to make a sacrifice. i just cant think of what or to what. i feel the need to destroy something of value to me in the hopes of getting something in return. what i get in return does not matter, i dont really care if i get anything for it or not, i just need to fullfill my i-thou relationship to something....anything 040308 ... z martin buber 040308 ... jane\ ramblings_at_2_am 040308 ... bandersnatch a few nights ago me and some friends were playing a video game and adam was playing as a bomb throwing ape. when he finnaly wins a round he proclaims "see, monkeyes can throw bombs." virgil then sais "sea monkys can throw bombs?!" i begin rolling around with laughter so much that they had to play the next 2 round by themselfs...i was sober. last night i kept myself awake by laughing for about 20 minuts by just occasionally saying to myself "sea monkies can throw bombs?!" 040330 ... misstree smoke with your pa. trust me. great bonding experience. don't let it pass. 040331 ... drawkcab YKCOWREBBAJ sevot yhtils eht dna gillirb sawT' ;ebaw eht ni elbmig dna eryg diD ,sevogorob eht erew ysmim llA .ebargtuo shtar emom eht dnA !nos ym ,kcowrebbaJ eht eraweB" !hctac taht swalc eht ,etib taht swaj ehT nuhs dna ,drib bujbuJ eht eraweB "!hctansrednaB suoimurf ehT :dnah ni drows laprov sih koot eH - thguos eh eof emoxnam eht emit gnoL ,eert mutmuT eht yb eh detser oS .thguoht ni elihwa doots dnA ,doots eh thguoht hsiffu ni sa ,dnA ,emalf fo seye htiw ,kcowrebbaJ ehT ,doow yeglut eht hguorht gnilffihw emaC !emac ti sa delbrub dnA hguorht dna hguorht dnA !owt ,enO !owt ,enO !kcans-rekcins tnew edalb laprov ehT daeh sti htiw dna ,daed ti tfel eH .kcab gnihpmulag tnew eH ?kcowrebbaJ eht nials uoht tsah dnA" !yob hsimaeb ym ,smra ym ot emoC "!yallaC !hoollaC !yad suojbarf O .yoj sih ni deltrohc eH sevot yhtils eht dna gillirb sawT' ;ebaw eht ni elbmig dna eryg diD ,sevogorob eht erew ysmim llA .ebargtuo shtar emom eht dnA uoy dluoW" .ecilA dias ",riS ,sdrow gninialpxe ta revelc yrev mees uoY" "?ykcowrebbaJ meop eht fo gninaem eht em llet yldnik reve taht smeop eht lla nialpxe nac I" .ytpmuD ytpmuH dias ",ti raeh s'teL" ".tey tsuj detnevni neeb t'nevah taht ynam doog a dna - detnevni erew :esrev tsrif eht detaeper ecilA os ,lufepoh yrev dednuos sihT sevot yhtils eht dna ,gillirb sawT' " ;ebaw eht ni elbmig dna eryg diD ,sevogorob eht erew ysmim llA ".ebargtuo shtar emom eht dnA ytnelp era ereht" :detpurretni ytpmuD ytpmuH ",htiw nigeb ot hguone s'tahT" emit eht - nooretfa eht ni kcolc'o ruof snaem 'gillirB' .ereht sdrow drah fo ".rennid rof sgniht gniliorb nigeb uoy nehw "?'yhtils' dna" :ecilA dias ",llew yrev od ll'tahT" '.evitca' sa emas eht si 'ehtiL' '.ymils dna ehtil' snaem 'yhtils' ,lleW" ".drow eno otni pu dekcap sgninaem owt era ereht - uaetnamtrop a s'ti ees uoY "?'sevot' era tahw dna" :yllufthguoht dekramer ecilA ",won ti ees I" - sdrazil ekil gnihtemos er'yeht - sregdab ekil gnihtemos era 'sevot' ,lleW" ".swercskroc ekil gnihtemos er'yeht dna ".serutaerc suoiruc yrev eb tsum yehT" rednu stsen rieht ekam yeht osla" :ytpmuD ytpmuH dias ",taht era yehT" ".eseehc no evil yeht osla - slaidnus "?'elbmig' dna 'eryg' ot s'tahw dnA" ot si 'elbmig' oT .epocsoryg a ekil dnuor dna dnuor og ot si 'eryg' oT" ".telmig a ekil seloh ekam ,ecilA dias "?esoppus I ,laidnus a dnuor tolp ssarg eht si 'ebaw' eht dnA" .ytiunegni nwo reh ta desirprus yaw gnol a seog ti esuaceb ,wonk uoy ',ebaw' dellac s'tI .si ti esruoc fO" "-- ti dniheb yaw gnol a dna ,ti erofeb .dedda ecilA ",edis hcae no ti dnoyeb yaw gnol a dnA" rehtona s'ereht( 'elbaresim dna ysmilf' si 'ysmim' ,neht lleW .os yltcaxE" sti htiw drib gnikool-ybbahs niht a si 'evogorob' dnA .)uoy rof uaetnamtrop ".pom evil a ekil gnihtemos - dnuor lla tuo ykcits srehtaef hcum oot uoy gnivig ton m'I fI" .ecilA dias "?'shtar emom' neht dnA" ".elbuort I .tuoba niatrec ton m'I 'emom' tub :gip neerg fo tros a si 'htar' a ,lleW" uoy ,yaw rieht tsol d'yeht taht gninaem - 'emoh morf' rof trohs s'ti kniht ".wonk "?naem 'ebargtuo' seod tahw dnA" a htiw ,gniltsihw dna gniwolleb neewteb gnihtemos si 'gnibirgtuo' ,lleW" ni nwod - ebyam ,enod ti raeh ll'uoy ,revewoh :elddim eht ni ezeens fo dnik .tnetnoc etiuq eb ll'uoy ti draeh ecno ev'uoy nehw dna - rednoy doow eht "?uoy ot ffuts drah taht lla gnitaeper neeb s'ohW .ecilA dias ",koob a ni ti daer I" 040401 ... emloemas !suoimurf nmad 040401 ... hctansrednab ?sdnah rouy no emit hcum oot tib a 040402 ... emloemas ytinrete fo stresed tsav 040402 what's it to you? who go blather from