new_year's_eve no reason we're gonna party like it's...er...tonight!! 031211 ... no reason hmm, i can't remember what i did that year... i wish i wasn't here i wish i was in toronto 071231 ... jane we had all these plans to go out to large parties & consume gallons of alcoholic beverages, and we.... fell asleep on the couch. woke up for a new years kiss, then he went back to sleep & left me thinking about what was going on at the parties. 080101 ... Ouroboros After hiding in bed and weeping all day, I pulled it together enough to get to his house. After that, the darkness left, and we left for a party with my jewcamp friends. he talked with our friend who's mother just died, I drank champagne and discussed the weirdness of LA with my friend from SF. At midnight, with the drunken kisses and confetti around us, he pulled me into the doorway of a bedroom, and we kissed. Driving to the dancing spot, he pulled the car over so put on his face paint. I adjusted my red mask. He hung out by the fire and drummers and the downtempo djs outside, and i danced with sweaty bodies to psytrance, until the creepy guy vibes were too creepy and i needed to find him and he was ready and we walked to our car parked across the street at the in and out parking lot, and we giggled, high on new_year's_eve. 080101 ... REAListic optimIST we got off to a late start, but that didn't hamper our fun one bit. i had flown from chicago that day, so had little time to prepare my costume, but i seem to have a penchant for putting together great costumes at the last minute. the molly and vitamin a played together nicely. the steampunk theme was beautiful the djs were truly magnificent, and the stage show was entertaining. i learned how to dance with my love, and could see and sense our spirits intertwining. we helped to carry the party to 6AM. She looked beautiful as always, and we both had people gawking and complimenting us. it was truly a magnificent time, and i was taken aback at how close she and i have become in such a short amount of time. 080102 ... Ouroboros I was the closest to attempting suicide that night that i've ever been- in that big empty house with bottles and bottles of xanax. 080915 what's it to you? who go blather from