i_swear_i_saw_a_life continuous ache morning has a way of coming hard pushing all logic to the side the truth of the world eludes me slipping into a sleepless night chance brought us high with hope let us fly with blind eyes through a thundercloud that follows every life never minding the turbulent skies it was just our valiant attempt to really be alive and i threw the door to my heart open wide and flung all knowledge to the side with a smile two bright souls locked together to die for the cheerful morning's lie - a love that is lasting ....an escape from a past of sighs. 020225 ... yummychuckle that was beautiful 020225 ... continuous ache/light thanks yummy. and all inspired because my boyfriend threw me around and then threw me out. funny was inspires beauty these days.... 020226 ... Lovers Content i swore i saw a life worth living even after forgiving all his sins but what it all came down to in the end was foolishness, an empty kiss a broken promise, an unheard sigh all he heard were the whispers of his life being cast aside he never said goodbye or took the time to explain why it was better that way i never got the chance to ask him to stay but it was his selfishness not my words, not the breath it took to utter them that led him to his death so i shuttered my heart against hurricane weather and promise myself i wouldn't open to another... time went by i thought i saw a spark in the distance i thought that it couldn't be just happenstance when an old flame reappeared in my life in my eyes he could do no wrong maybe i'd just been too long gone mistaking sympathy for empathy not realizing he couldn't make me happy wondering what peace would be how it would feel to harbor true love in my soul to be whole again as i never thought i could be but he proved to me that that was not an option and i found once again how often people are misled by images in their head of perfection and the inflection in his voice when we parted left no room for being softhearted or weak and i decided to stop seeking the thing i want more than anything the thing i couldn't obtain a love without refrain... but as i thought my walls were crumbling and i couldn't stand on my own a blazing figure came to my rescue a dragon made of stone and you picked me up and let me see the beauty of how unconditional love can be i've never felt my heart beat so clear my thoughts are like water and you hear every drop in the river it feels like spring after an unrelenting winter you've given me the thing i thought i could never have things i didn't deserve you made me laugh again, you made me feel worth every night when we lay down to bed you stroke my head and tell me all the ways i am wonderful and i am left speechless, dumbfounded, and thankful as you could never believe you've seen a light in me and with time i think i may see it too not just the light in me, but the light i've seen from the beginning with you i'm starting to see the outline of a wolf beside the dragon the magnetic poles of our hearts attracting each other every moment and when you whisper in my ear everything disappears but your voice i'm so glad that for once i made the right choice we're intertwined now in life's web heartbeat to heartbeat and thread to thread you are the prayer i never dared to hope would be answered and this cancer that's eaten away at me for so many years all the fears and indecision melt away with your love's reflection on the surface of my now calmed river everything i could ask for has been delivered you give me faith in corners i'd darkened and paved the way for us to get started on a journey that has no depth and no end the journey with my soulmate, my lover, my friend. Once again to my Ace of hearts. i'll always say yes to you. 061114 what's it to you? who go blather from