goth_girl_says_goodbye iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl Hi everybody, This is the final chapter of all my blathes. I don't think many will care or notice, but my blathing time is now up. I came into this calm blue sanctuary in December last year, and although I swore to myself I would stay longer, it is time for me to leave. To the blatherworld I did not want to be one more anonymous blur slipping away from the multitude, although in actual fact that appears to be what I am doing. If by chance I ever do stop by again, I will not use this name, not because i 'have grown as a person' or become somehting different. I am still very insecure, very afraid. I'm still a goth and (hopefully) still a girl. I am leaving behind this name and these thoughts because if i want to grow and actually find myself, not hide in the half formed fears and dreams of these pages, I must leap. Already I am regretting this, but I have made my decision and must leave. Apart from people reading my words, and feeling exposed, my thoughts are too private for even here, in azure anonymity. They belong on paper, paper which I shall cherish and inevitably destroy. Some things aren't meant to be told, and so I shall stop babbling. So here I am, jumping out into the real world. Wish me luck, because for me, the world is terrifying and too huge. Although I don't know any of you that well, I am glad to have been here and been able to *feel*, along with thousands of others. Thanks to all of you, good luck with your lives. Goodbye. 040523 ... kookaburra AhHHHHHHHH!!!!! dont go!!! pleeze? 040523 ... smurfus rex aw man... good luck to you and come back to visit. you're already missed. 040523 ... thieums Farewell... Wish you all the best. 040523 ... . true blatherskites never leave forever...they come back like moths 040523 ... x we need to index these goodbye pages 040523 ... Deomis Ahh! goodbye.. good luck... I'll miss your blathes. Hopefully you will come back some day. 040523 ... marked . 040524 ... dosquatch Fare thee well, may you find what you are looking for. May all of us, as well. 040524 ... shivers i hate it when someone says goodbye 040524 ... dosquatch Welcome back, btw :) 040608 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl lol i couldnt stay away....... i feel like such a fool coming back and reading what i wrote, but leaving for a while did help - now i have seen a world outside my own petty problems and i can hopefully write some meaningful stuff now lol. next time i leave, i wont announce it *cringes* thanks for welcoming me back dosquatch ^_^ and by the way, trial seperation... you said you missed me.... do i know you under another name? i mean no offence, im just curious as to who you are. 040609 ... trial separation yea. 040609 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl oooooooooooooooo do i know you from blather or out of blather? 040610 ... trial separation from blather... 040610 ... dosquatch You just asked her alterego to come back. 040610 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl yeah i finally figured that out lol *blushes* sorry, having a dense moment there 040612 ... ambermoon but where are you now? 090425 ... somebody in dreams 101016 ... Traveller it is true, we all come back, eventually. . 101016 ... IGG indeed. i doubt i'll ever leave. but i have changed a lot from when i used to post on here. it's a embarrassing looking back at some of the posts i've done, and i want to shed my moniker and start again but i like being IGG but i am no longer really insecure (not in the way i used to be) no longer a goth, as although that was fun, i am a more developed person now, who is no singular 'thing' but rather enjoys a multitude of several things and quite likes not being so easily labelled though i am still a girl. IGG is a comfortable fit, as it has connotations outside blather that it is still relevant to. i apologise for such a ramble, but i have been browsing old posts of mine and retracing some old fun blathes and i am cringing to see how immature i was, despite the fact i thought i really wasn't at the time. this is making me reconsider whether i want to have those still attached, or to form a new name. as yet undecided. 101016 ... Phil Keep swinging and we'll keep calling strikes. I am happy you didn't leave forever. 101016 ... Doar Seriously??? . 110721 ... eyedream can deeply, deeply sympathize. 110721 ... dafremen Maturity is overrated. Usually by the young...and insecure. 110722 ... no reason emotional maturity isn't overrated "acting like an adult" in every situation is 110722 what's it to you? who go blather from