what_i_really_need_right_now Mahayana + simply 2 be held + 020125 ... kelli crane I could think of nothing better at this time of my existence. Right here right now. 020125 ... searching a hug and someone to tell me that everything is going to be ok, that i won't always feel as alone and confused as i do right now 020126 ... Mahayana {{{searching}}} -_-hugs 4 yOu-_- it really [will] be ok [be gOne ::alone & confusion:: be gone] it wOnt always be this way only thing i can offer is this when we are alone & confused its such a dread -yet- it also brings us hidden gifts one of which is : compassion : if we do not know the pain & sorrow like that of our neighbors & fellow beings, perhaps, we may not understand it as we should, so try to remember in your state of aloness & confusion you are being strengthened & enlightened [i feel very similar 2 how yOu seem 2 be feeling right now - so know you are not truly alone - i am there with you] {{{searching}}} -_-hugs 4 yOu-_- [{i may not be fortunate enough 2 be there 2 hug you, but perhaps a blather hug will soften the aloneness}] [as i close my eyes :i am imagining hugging you:][i shall meditate on this right now] [please be well & believe me things will be & are ok- you are truly divine as you are & where you are in life] 020126 ... Mahayana strength 020126 ... Nathan88 just to talk to ya...just wish i woulda got to say everything i had on my mind...oh well i get to talk to you tomorrow:) until then my thoughts are filled with you 030128 ... andyg OH SHIT SON OF A BITCH FUCKING TITTIY 041012 ... elusive metal I've come to realise, just recently, that i really need someone. someone to hold me, want me, love me, laugh with me. odd. i've never felt this before, always been entirly independant, but now i feel that something, someone, is lacking in my life. there's an emptiness. but not sadness, just the knowledge that something i should have, i don't. 041013 ... Syrope i think it'd be sort of fun to stage my own abduction 041013 ... no reason 1/3 cup confidence 1/3 cup independence 1/3 cup security i can taste the happiness. i can taste the relief. 041013 ... grendel more money, more time, sex, drugs, cool weather and rain. 041018 ... uow the energy to put my shelves together or myself together for that matter 041018 ... jane everybody to be healthy again. 081202 ... hsg may_peace_prevail_on_earth 081203 ... misstree rest. real, true, sitting by a river, feeling the sun warm my skin, rest. i'm so very tired. 081203 ... . is for you to understand just what you have done to me. 090126 ... super ultra caffeinated birdmad a can of BRAWNDO, so i can WIN AT YELLING just saw "Idiocracy" 090126 ... stork daddy a spaceship, three wolverines, a rasputin impersonator and a techno cd with no scratches. 090126 ... unhinged according to my dreams last night: dirty lips and hands all over me 090126 ... lux not to feel this way to stay out of his truck at 2:30 am and get some sleep 090126 ... mahayana To lay in bed listening to music while holding you close. We'd roll over on our sides, face each other, in better facilitation of our conversations. Observing the passage of time as wall colors change from night to day. We'd do this for an entire day and still I'd not have my fill. There is a void to satiate you see. 090210 ... . is to say goodbye to you. I'm so torn. 090210 ... grendel as satyr 1. a fresh pineapple, cored and sliced 2. almond butter sweetened with honey over 9 grain toast. 3. a platter of ebi rolls 4. a cute woman with a twisted sense of both humor and adventure (and a raging oral fixation)...because i've been entirely too well-behaved since New Year's 090210 ... Ouroboros strength to focus my intentions into daily practice 090210 ... worthless The love and comfort of the one whose love I no longer have. 160306 what's it to you? who go blather from