look_at_me jane look at me what am i supposed to be? what am i supposed to be? look at me what am i supposed to be? what am i supposed to be? look at me oh my love oh my love here i am what am i supposed to do? what am i supposed to do? here i am what can i do for you? what can i do for you? here i am oh my love oh my love look at me, oh please look at me, my love here i am - oh my love who am i? nobody knows but me nobody knows but me who am i? nobody else can see just you and me who are we oh my love oh my love -john lennon 021208 ... jane has good taste plastic ono band. best thing john ever did. 021208 ... Rhin www.rhin.150m.com/lennon.html 021209 ... minnesota_chris Your eyes and mouth say, "I'm ready, I'll take you on." Your voice is surprisingly soft. 021210 ... elsa hi... Hey... HELLO? oh i wasn't really gunna say anything. don't mind me, please, be on your way. i was just gunna show you. how i did this. i mean, no, go away. you've done it before. and better at that. ...can i have some attention too? no? okay. tell me where you want me. i'll wait. yes i know i don't usually say anything that i mean. i mean, i say what you want to hear. can i just take a second? lie to me for just a second. tell me that you're proud, happy with the job i did. no, sorry. I swear i didn't mean to do so good. i didn't mean to get a better grade. i just did what i was told. i'm sorry. really your grade is good. i am proud of you. can't you be proud of me too? no? tell me where you want me... 031107 ... pipedream c'mon, look you'll see what everyone else does i'm easy to be with. i won't ask hard questions and i make everyone laugh. i smile and sparkle and skip along. i'd have butterflies in my wake, pink ones. which makes being my cynical, sarcastic bitter self so much more fun its such a pain in the ass to be happy all the time- i'm getting tired of being miss beacon-of-light doesn't get me anywhere, doesn't give me anything but inaneities and angst only i know if i told you- ha, but i won't you see because really, do you think you'd get it? don't waste my time, run along now as long as i smile the world can carry on i'll catch up, don't worry about me now i know how to heal myself, i've had lots of practice. 031107 ... celestias shadow Look at me. No, really look. Look closer. Can't you see through my skin? Seems translucent enough to me. Except for those dark shields I have. It's getting harder and harder to have real emotions. I say what people want me to say at the time. Isn't that better than saying something that won't help them? I keep my thoughts to myself, but the problem with this is that my thoughts have found their own little corner to hide. They've locked themselves in and only I can find them now. I can't say them any more. Now, look at me. Up here. See my eyes? Do they say anything? Why am I so afraid of compliments? I'm afraid to be good at something, but I want to be good at everything. I'm afraid to love anyone, but I want to be everyone's friend. I'm afraid to be pretty, it's impossible, but it's something I want so much. Somehow I think things might be easier if I was beautiful. If I didn't have to worry about it so much. Look. at. me. How could anyone ever love someone like me? 031212 ... whitechocolatewalrus i am disappearing soon i will be gone look at me my skin made of glass metal wood paper nothing water ice melting disappearing. 031212 ... pipedream being pretty won't help anything celestias...i'm told i am and didn't get me nothin' except a lot of stuff i didn't want. which doesn't mean i'm ungrateful, but it doesn't get you as much as you think. people who call you beautiful will be genuine gems of people who will see your beauty- and trust me, your beauty is the kind that lasts forever, transcends mortality and time-, and you don't deserve anyone but. 031213 ... Eowithien Can't you just for a moment? Watch my cheeks go bright red as our eyes meet. I just wish I could listen to you speak without getting so nervous. I wish that I could focus on what you want me to focus on, whether that be your eyes or your words, just so you could see that I'm doing the right thing. Maybe things would go better. Just for a moment? Oh, but you didn't hear me anyway so nevermind. 040224 ... jimmy what all of my prattling amounts to 040224 ... emmi if you did, you might notice: i'm gorgeous 040308 ... jane just came on randomly & broke my heart 040406 what's it to you? who go blather from