constrained if i could talk id tell you this is me, jailed imprisoned and inhibited my screams shiver and are never delivered i'm holding back because of simple fears that would inevitably turn into complex, convoluted nightmarish realities 020128 ... pushpins eep. that was lovely. 020128 ... unhinged there were so many things i wanted to say to you but time has taught me better i still wanted to love you time had not taught me that better and still your words were like knives jammed into the softest part of my soul where sunlight never reaches i thought apology forgivness was good for the fallen i thought love healed all wounds time has still not taught me better and when i held you topless uttered 'my beautiful bobbi' across your drunken face i thought it might mean something to you time has still not taught me better and i am rebuilding my walls silent all around me wanting to scream your egocentricity to the world your flesh in my teeth but i didn't leave any marks because i didn't want to hurt you time has still not taught me better 020128 what's it to you? who go blather from