dating_randomly i_think_you_know feels wrong, and saddness thrives, with all these random boys. and still, I would do all the unthinkable things to just hear his voice again, let alone see his face. and all I want to do is ask these boys how to do just that... 070420 ... Klover i dated this napkin for a while, it was a wild ride thats for sure but after a while i decided to date a pumpkin instead, but that was all before i met this huge chunk of potassium - let's just say we'll sending out invites in the next several weeks, isn't that so, my dear potassy-wassy? 070421 ... Osunlade why did you date a pumpkin ? wheres your boat and your dog ? my friend has got a silvery bike. they wouldn't let me in the party last night, me no understand. 070422 ... e if they've got a lift then they must also have stairs ? the music people are taking the piss out of me. i won't need drugs or narcotic herbs if people would stop kuffing me. i want to go fast in a car. 070422 ... unhinged to most boys dating = fucking so i have not been graced with that label very often cause either i give it up too soon or not at all i'm tired of the modern definition of the word dating. 070422 ... pete "dating" as a word is used differently now then it was in our parents or grandparents day. rather then being a full fledged relationship, it seems to have referred to the stages before 'going steady', a term i only know from archie comics.. 070422 ... i_think_you_know and after it all again: klarity reigns. shall i have another thought not of him? no. all of my thoughts, and veils of happiness remain tangled with selfish strings, reluctantly, they remain untied. and sadness reigns... 070423 ... unhinged for_fucks_sake if i am sleeping on your goddamn couch every night for a couple of months there is nothing random about it and you can grab me close when your exgirlfriend is ten feet away thinking i didn't know you need to put me on display as your friend as your violinist fuck_that_noise god i hate dating i hate it it always means more to me than the other person involved i hate that i have to sleep with a guy for most guys to feel even the slightest impulse towards some sort of half_assed committment that most guys aren't willing to be devoted unless they are getting off frequently guys weren't allowed to be this bad when my mom was my age i think the feminist movement backfired god i am tired of being the friend i want a cuddle_bug i want morning_sex i don't want to wonder if i'm the most important person in their reality i want some devotion thrown back at me finally spring always makes me naseous (sp) everyone coupled off smiling slobbering while i'm silently observing as the friend 070423 ... unhinged girl talking on her cellphone on the bus: 'i went to brunch yesterday. you remember tony? tony took me to brunch at this fancy french restaurant called trocadero. i'm not sure if he likes me. i mean we've always talked about other people, but yesterday we talked about everything. and he wouldn't let me pay.' gag_me 070423 ... unhinged we went to dinner last night as just_friends of course and everywhere i looked there were couples touching kissing gazing and then i had some drinks with her and she made me unbelieveably happy but she's already somebody's baby and she gave me a really beautiful bracelet she made told me how wonderful and great i am all night long and all of it was like a stab wound and today i'm gushing overflowing same_tired_old_story (but i don't think it will ever stop hurting for me to be alone; springtime just seems to intensify that for awhile) 080426 ... Tenon is what i did to fill the void... But instead the void grew bigger. The one that I wanted is the one I could never have. Now there's only emptyness when before a heart would be racing. 080426 ... minnesota_chris they flame up quickly and flame out quickly 080427 what's it to you? who go blather from