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blah-ze
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i can't breathe i have to talk now blind because i have my hands over my eyes holding the tears in i have to walk but the wall at my back is my only support don't try to fix this hole i've come to like it it lets in the cold but lets me escape when i need to run away from my life and pray alone in a field of darkness love love love far away but visible on the horison iron heart iron soul keeps me walking in the right direction time to fight i have to let it out i have to run i have to scram at the top of my voice and feel the pain who are you and to you who am i which is a million times more because today i woke and nothing felt the same but it eas the same grind hour after hour feeling it creeping hard press me down from above and it's all i can do to stop myself falling on my face in the mud and the rain above and ice below i know i can't expect you to say what i want to hear but i'm too afraid to say what i want to say and it's strange when i have to go it makes my heart heavy i wish i could weigh your heart and know your dreams i have none i call my own only borrowed and unoriginal i tried being original but nothing seemed right i don't want to now so yell it from the door so i can pretend not to hear i don't want to hear i look back and wonder but i'm all right considering wouldn't change a thing i would change anything and everything i anm just to know your feelings share your secrets but i know they are too much for me to deal i owe more than i can safely give back i need more than anyone can safely provide i feel less and more real like i want help me i'm floating away and i have no head for heights i need solidity beneath my feet a time to live a time to die if i were to die it would be fast i have been waiting this long too long perhaps noone needs to know me anymore i don't want to know me anymore but it's hard not togod i could die now and be happy with your face it your head your smile behind my eyes it's so juvenile just a crush but i don't care anymore i want it real sit and stare and try not to stare or feel it anymore but it it killing my hope
i hope you will, i know you won't
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puredream
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*hugs*
You're beautiful.
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stratfordfour
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'i wish i could weigh your heart and know your dreams'
thats going on my blather quotes collection
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notme
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blah-ze
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people
disgust
me
pristine when we begin, a white slate, so promising, such an absolute waste, and so we fail, with every breath, with every waking moment, our decisions take us away from purity and simplicity and
turn
us
into
this.
such an absolute waste of evrything we began as, twisted, complex, confused and broken, so far away and distant, not misunderstood but seen with perfect clarity and dismissed as such,
there
is
no
perfection,
only reality, being, this state of consciousness, and oblivion.
all
else
is
falsehood.
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what's it to you?
who
go
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blather
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