heatherlee rudhaen hmm. 010308 ... arinna well, dear you've started yourself a blather and i can't resist the urge to write. i haven't really talked to you for a longtime or even hung out with you much, and i've missed your company. i don't really know exactly what's been going on inside your head, but i guess you're trying to figure out who you are exactly. and i hope it's working. whoever that you figure out that you are (that was wicked awkward), we need to go and have some old fashioned fun. love you, chica. 010308 ... p. since i saw here at auditions for "the mouse trap", I couldnt really get her out of my head. Sure, she was just another person passing at the time, just another being breathing the same air, but there was just something about her, I couldnt quite place my finger on it... but now I know what is so special about her, now I know why the image of her in a man's suit was rediculous, yet she could still shine through in it. I fell in love with that magic that made her that treasure that only few could reap... i fell in love with the girl that seemed to make everything so special, to make the best of things, and be so great and her own self at the same time. the memories we've had will never fade, they are there no matter what the future holds for me. The influence she's had on my life is the greatest I've ever experienced.. she was the first real person to get me away from my computer for more than 5 hours at a time! that *has* to say something, there. Over the past 13 months i have learned more about myself and who i am thanks to this great girl, i have learned who she is, and just how wonderful she can be, even when she doesnt try. i cry when i think of all the good times we've had, and how it's all gone by so fast. i cry when i think of you going off to college. i'm scared to lose such a precious thing in my life, such a wonderful person. oh.. the memories we share.. -extreme sports -5th element -funtown/mall/movie -luebec -arizona/maine vacation books -massive summer emails -the second I saw you after being away from you for over a month, and the extreme joy that rushed through my body -"goodnight, i love you, get on icq, goodnight, i love you, get on icq, etc.." -the k.s. dance -trick or treating -the two issues of "heather-lee daily" -the moment your arm hit my sleeping (or so you thought) chest. -staring at the ceiling, staring at each other, looking away, staring at the celing, etc... -beating your minesweeper record! :) -how i shake when you finally get me to laugh -our daily notes -our "future plans" -spitting my gum.. well, you know.. -the way you look in the rain... *sigh*.. you're beautiful -the irish placemats... -the checkered curtain -that silly place above the garage, all the silly toys -how we can really suck at bowling -how being with you makes up for it -it's rainy, it's midnight, do you know where your kid is? (we have never met at a sillier time) -thinking you were a stalker/killer type in the far night distance -Bill & Ted's Bogus Journey -Everafter -The Princess Bride -laying down on that same couch, every time we watcha movie -shoveling your driveway (not all have to be good memories ;]) -the agony when you defeated me at minesweeper *last* year (oi vey!) -your ridiculous harem costume (which, by the way, you were extremely cute in) -Best In Show, and the whole p-land day -being madly in love with you and your great self this entire time and even though i may not always say it, i sure do mean it. oh the moments we've shared, the times we've had. the glimmer in your eye when you're excited.. everything that makes you, you.. i love it, i love it all, and the bond we share is strong and long-lasting. this girl is so special to me, nothing can take that away. she will always be the first i truly loved. 010308 ... mikey my thoughts exactly 010308 what's it to you? who go blather from