how_dare_you elimeny How dare you? How dare you try to climb your way into my head and heart and make your own assumptions about why i write what i write? you do not know me. i am sick of apologizing. and dont say you arent trying to lay a guilt trip on me. because whether or not you recognize that that is what you are attempting to do, it is. and this time you went too far. I am no longer sorry. Thank you in a way for getting that off my back, that guilt i held. are you so self-centered to think that my entire posting under love was about you? one sentence boy. One sentence. How dare you assume that it was all about you? and HOW DARE YOU make assumptions about Kris? who are you to try and make evaluations about my life? i did not say you were in love with me. i said it was a sad thing that i didnt have feelings for you. Welcome to blather. this is an open forum. an intentionally anonymous one at that. what i choose to write is my own fucking business. NOT YOURS. if you are so set on not letting a two week relationship go, and you want to read everything i write, fine. its open. but do not try to make me feel like shit by whining about how you think i treated you unfairly. my feelings are just that. MINE. not yours, to judge as you wish. I am not trying to hurt you. Dating is a learning experience. and you get hurt. but you have to roll with the punches. you cant move on to the next relationship if you are still obsessing over the last. i want you to be happy... and nothing i can do will make that happen for you. i knew how i felt after a week. im sorry if you didnt want to accept that. im sorry if you really wanted to believe that if i had kept trying, i would have felt differently. and maybe its not tactful to post this here. but because you have made me feel like i should censor myself, i feel like i cant post how i really feel. and fuck that. this is how i feel. im not going to hold back anymore for fear of hurting you so much. you are an adult. act like one. this is blather goddammit! im going to bitch about what i want to bitch about, cry about what i want to cry about, and hypothesize on feelings such as love and hate, and i am not going to hold myself back for fear that someone from my past will read it and misinterprate it! 030118 ... Alden Wish I'd seen this sooner. Didn't think the whole thing was me. Knew it wasn't. Wish you'd talk to me. You've gotten me addicted to blather you know. And not just for you. 030121 ... mr pete Well, I'm not apart of this conversation, but I thought I would put my 2 or 3 cents in. What u say pertains to more then just Blather. It pretains to life. If everyone just told the truth about how they (or we) feel, then life would be a lot simpler, and it would be a lot easier to just move on. Instead of wondering what the other person is feeling, we would all know. So, the person that this is directed at please listen to what is said. Learn from it for yourself and take that advice into the next relationship. Be honest with yourself and the person you are with, and life will be a lot easier. 030122 ... alden totally Mr.Pete, totally. Actually, reading that post helped on a level you wouldn't believe. I wish every woman who has dumped me would be kind enough to tell me they hate me instead of simply saying "we'll talk later" and then leaving me wondering where I stand. It's so liberating, I wish you (elimeny) had done that right from the start. When you first left me, what did I say to you? I told you it would only be ok as a clean break, sudden sharp pain but it heals quickest. You didn't want that and I warned you about what would happen. But now you simply hate me, and I don't have to hate myself anymore. Woo Hoo! 030122 ... unhinged i keep saying this to myself. she is happy so who am i? i guess it just makes me angry that i can never be part of making anyone happy. 030122 ... Alden one truth I have learned, one I guess some people hold to be self evident, is that no one can make someone happy. It's impossible, you are the only one who can make you happy and that goes for everyone. No one can make you sad either, that's a choice you have to make. Happiness, sadness, lonliness, all of it, they're all choices, not conditions. Funny that it took pulling back the hammer on a .38 Chief's Special to make me realize that. 030122 ... mr pete but the difference is, if happyness to you is giving someone your love, then how can you be happy when you are alone? I think someone can make me happy, buy only letting me love them. 030124 ... Alden It's not about that pete, how can anyone accept love from someone who doesn't even love themself? I've found that you must be comfortable being alone, and able to love yourself while you're alone, befor it's even worth trying to get someone else involved. Seriously, that all made sense in my head. 030126 ... Mr Pete Well, I guess that it is harder to love yourself than it is to love someone else.......But it makes sense. 030225 what's it to you? who go blather from