survivor still here i'm alive 010505 ... oh pee um survival is : hiding in the trees or behind buildings or in dark alleys in tizi ouzou in mortal fear from front islamique de salut soldiers who would like nothing better than to hunt you out and find you and then shoot you point blank in the temple and afterwards, just for fun stand there watching while your family, your wife and children are weeping and shaking with terror and maybe even kick you a few times in the head so that you bleed even more... survival is : desperately holding on to another miserable and excruciating day even though you know that a deadly infection is ravaging your already emaciated and wasting corpse of a body and knowing that even though you fight through the fever and sweat and vomit and the shitting of absolutely nothing but water, while lying in the street in the middle of kinshasa becuase your family was afraid to even be in the same room with you and you were driven from your sick bed by your own mother who could not look you in the eye as she proclaimed "you are already dead to me" and as people pass over you, turning their heads from your direction in fear, distaste or hopelessness because what can they do anyway when they have no way to change the already impoverished and failing system of the country they live in and which doesn't care enough and which doesn't have enough money to provide even the most meagre healthcare and medicine for those who are like you, all the millions of souls like you who are dying even at this moment while the whole world sits back and wonders "well, how many more will die this year from such a tragic epidemic ?" but basically doesn't do a thing or give a damn... survival is not : 16 people chosen to fuck around on an island for 4 months until the last one victoriously returns to their corporate or suburban or academic or married with 2.5 children or divorced father looking for new wife existence while becoming 1 million dollars greedier. 010505 ... ? ? 010507 ... been around the block me too, i am a survivor 010511 ... kx21 a TV show? 010512 ... squigglybee outwit outplay outlast oh yeah baby *giggles* 020706 ... Sailor Jupiter Tonight I am not much feeling like a survivor. I feel like a victim. How can I say I survived when it only happens again in my dreams??? 020706 ... endless desire every week. i can't wait for the next season. yes, i know it's lame but it's what i like today. my whole family watches it and we have survivor parties on the finalies. we also watch law_and_order and csi. we are having a law_and_order party on monday because there is a 12 hour marathon. we thought we'd eat the kind of food they have. . .donuts, sandwhiches, hotdogs, and coffee are typically on the show. we have the whole first season. it's glorious. and then there's friends. my family is obsessed with that too. though i never thought of friends as a proper "family" show. we all watch it together, my youngest sister being 10. now we have the 1st and 2nd season, and soon to borrow the 3rd. i'm not a big channel surfer. i know what i like and i watch it when i can. i only surf channels late at night when shows like just_shoot_me and will_and_grace are on late at night. i like those. they really make me laugh. 030828 ... rhin i only really watch two shows on television, one of them being survivor. i'm actually glad that j.t. won. however, it would have been nice to see sierra win the sprint reward just for all the 'supposed' shit she went through. anyway. 090517 what's it to you? who go blather from