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counterentity You are the one with the endless words.
I am the one with endless thoughts but not the words to put them in.

You are the one with the brilliant smile,
I'm the one with the silent grin.

you are the one who stands by your faith.
i am the one who secludes myself in oblivion.

and yet we are somehow intertwined.
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niska you are very patient.

i am very bored.

you and i are very strong,
it seems...
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unhinged You and I
Ah, the calm below that poisoned the river wild
You and I
Tears that dry on a rude awakened child
Where you look down
I’ve walked before
Burning holes
With eyes of liquid brown
If we had only known
In a way
We wouldn’t reach this ground
You were my only home
Silver eyes
I want to see you shine
And we will feel the weight
Fall away from us in time
Searching our past for the true
You and I, you and I, you and I
All for you
Where you think you’ll fall
I adore you
Where you shut your soul
I will open for you
If we had only known
In a way
We’d never reach this ground
I'll know
Silver eyes
I can see us shine
I said, we will feel the weight
Fall away from us in time
Searching our past for a true
You and I, you and I, you and I
All for you.

jeff_buckley
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Twitch lets be friends, aye?


look, your probably not that bad, and I'm not that bad.


I can help you when_you're_feeling_down and vice versa.


Thats how we're supposed to live anyway...right?
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megan it's always coming back around to you
and i'm so glad
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selfi I baked cookies for you. I made enough for your family. You didn't call me back. Will you ever keep your word? You were "busy" watching that stupid movie. Did you say maybe? Maybe. Indecisive. You can call me anytime. I can't call you past 10 o' clock. Unfair.

When will you learn to just say No? and not leave me so incomplete.

Do I expect too much? Expectations are bad. I expect only what you express. Maybe I should just skip a step and expect disappointment. Unrest. I wonder where you are, what are you doing? The same as me? Doubt it.

Then you wouldn't have forgot.
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Ouroboros You infuriate me- it's not fair! You, who came close to me and moved away, you who rejected me, you who continue to move onward and upward- You and I, in the same place at the same time (this was days ago)- you strode over, you hugged me, you looked me in the eye and wanted to know how it was- and my heart lept, my heart ached. You bring me up, you elevate me, inside I sing and I yearn that you feel the same. but as always, you don't, I know you don't. So I go home and listen to Joni Mitchell and write about you. 070210
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falling_alone in a little toy shop
buy a bag of balloons
with the money we've got
set them free at the break of dawn
till one by one
they were gone...
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unhinged work so much better alone 070212
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Ouroboros Love Song
Rainer Maria Rilke

How can I keep my soul in me, so that
it doesn't touch your soul? How can I raise it high enough, past you, to other things? I would like to shelter it, among remote lost objects, in some dark and silent place that doesn't resonate when your depths resound. Yet everything that touches us, me and you, takes us together like a violin's bow, which draws one voice out of two seperate strings. Upon what instrument are we two spanned? And what musician holds us in his hand? Oh sweetest song.

love song
rilke
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Ouroboros but then i see you, and i feel nothing, which makes me suspect that this yearning is more than you 070212
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unhinged don't exist anymore
i painted over it

i went to the drugstore and bought some whiteout
to paint over the burnholes you left
when you were too fucked up to notice
you were destroying my house

i painted over it
we don't exist anymore
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Staind_And_Souless But we go on pretending stories like ours have happy endings 120720
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unhinged and_then

but_ then life picked the scab off the heart wound and you are way too important to me again
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