maria zavyman Suppose that time had just gone by Since I did never want to try Would ever I might chance to see Your love, or more, thy beauty be? Cannot, I say, just cast aside This chance, nor would I let it slide I must take action, must obey My heart that longs for you today You lead me on only to take Away the words you seem to fake But when I do look in your eyes A certain thing I realize You act like me, I act like you Confused, and just between us two We just know not the words to say To make it right, our fears allay. 000807 ... zavyman Your actions may confuse the way I think But as it stands this is the way I feel The way I love, for want of better word Is strange, no less, confuses you as well The secret that I share is mine alone Now only you and I can know for sure And yet deny we do, delude ourselves Till once again it hits us unawares Thus known to us what can and should we do It seems to me the same we've always done This is the way, for sure, that I know best And if it be, well then, who can object I still am plagued by demons of unrest For what if what I see is not for real So thus these feelings I must hide from you Only to give to you just drop by drop It pains me when I see the way I am Unable to express my inner self So much for me, it must be worse for you To know that all I do hides how I feel Just know that I, a novice to this game Must learn the rules designed to keep me out I wish you these conventions overlook To make you happy, yes, that's all I want. 000807 ... zavyman What could I say If I had simply ignored this Or in actuality Not acted upon it What would I feel If I knew That I could have Made us both happy What would have happened Between us Had we known Exactly how we felt It makes me rethink My actions and words When I am with you In body or mind It shows me the way Not often traveled That I must choose So we might just be close It makes me feel bad When I see you Not realizing what it is That I see in you I wish I could tell you Just how I feel So that armed with the knowledge You could show me the way I wish you could see me The way I see you When we are alone Our minds in connection I wish this could end This confusion of sorts Never knowing the truth Sought desperately by us Yet somehow I wonder Is this not for the better The game that we play Shows our love More than words ever could Yet it seems that this game May have some side effect That causes me to feel Emotions not real So this more than all else Makes me keep to myself Since how could I tell you The false ways I feel They would be meaningless And what's more they could hurt And causing you pain Would pain me just the same Alas in these moments When I get sentimental Emotions crystalize Events seem more clear I want you to know this Just once just this time These emotions I feel for you Come from deep in my heart 000807 ... zavyman Alone I grasp the unknown world Hoping to feign a glimpse And everytime success receive Again I am submerged It is so hard to get to you My voice just seems to fade Confused I lack vision to see The way you truly feel Emotions get mixed up within Shadows I seize for real Humbly I try to let them through Cryptic they turn to be Cannot conceed will not give in Returning to the game Here I am shall ever be Myself forever true 000807 ... unhinged ma-ri-a aug-ment-ed fourth 010202 ... kx21 A beautiful STRING evolved from superstrings, Ave Maria... 010203 ... carne de metal es un sol. 020206 ... scooby sumone i love. 041021 ... Maria Of course I had to look through the site, my interest peaked, as my name is Maria Baptiste. 050620 ... Maria Find me, Tony. Find me, find me, find me, Tony and love me forever. Take me in your arms and say you need me, want me, can't live without me, because my name is Maria. 071010 what's it to you? who go blather from