clarifiying_my_heart thy i know... very little, in the grand scheme of things. one the few things i do know, after a lot of thinking about it, is that love, light, happiness, joy, all of these things... exist, in the realist way available to us humans. we feel them. in our hearts and in our souls and in our guts and in our minds, we feel them. and others feel them to. just dont expect reciprocation. asking for it, go for it, ask. wanting it is one thing, needing it is another, expecting it... dont. turn these pages and you wont make it very far before you find and example of the reality of these things... even if its just 'someones' reality. the same can be said of the opposite, hate, darkness... and so on. these things exist too. we feel them. ... at this point, i feel a 'yeah, soo...' coming on. ... my point is: ive seen both sides of the coin, i have walked in the light and i have walked in the darkness, to an extent that i will not say. i will say that with regards to darkness, i dont want that, and i dont want that for anyone. ever. and having been nearly to the point of no return, figuratively and literally, i could be a completely different person. evil could be the word, bad could be another. hateful, spiteful, i dunno, a piece of shit, what ever language suits your taste. but, i dont want to be that. i could... but i dont. i truly dont. and maybe i am sometimes, but damnit, i dont mean to be. with all the hurt in the world, i dont want to add to it. do i? im sure, but it is not my intent. what i want for people is love, light, happiness, and joy. friends, (i would say foes, but i have none in my heart) acquaintances, strangers alike. what i strive for is goodness. what i feel for people is goodwill. why? i dont know. its hard to put into words. i just try to put myself in others shoes. i fail. but i try. i imagine the crotchety mean old lady at the supermarket, that could be my grandma. the impatient guy in line getting irritated, could be my dad. the pissed off dude with the shitty attitude behind the register, that could be me (and at times in my life it has been). and so on and so forth. so if you look at it right, we could be a family. but then i imagine a big warm campfire with laughter and acoustic guitar singalongs and spirited discussions and enough spirits flowing to go around for everyone. and we could be friends. i want everyone to find love, light, happiness and joy. a better world, is a better world. to the people that are looking, there is a light on. to the people who have found it, they are keeping that light on for the rest of us. turn these pages and see; dont ever stop. 111111 ... thy Did you mean: clarifying yes, yes i did. 111111 ... Death of a Rose I`m with you my brother in all your words and in all your heart. 111111 ... Doar you say the words my friend. words that make my head and mind break, because i know..... i`ve been broken many times, but thy, even though we are broken, we are still willing to fight against the forces that would break us. Ready to challenge the stupid small minded intimidation dreams they impose. I wish you health and happiness my friend. But I will never stop fighting. . 111111 ... thy thank you, your words mean a lot to me. me, i have no interest to fight, i just strive to be better then i was yesterday, and each day there on, to be whole, to just be. but i think i know what you mean, and if it is that, then i say fight_on and write_on and live forever. much love. 111111 ... unhinged the_genuine_heart_of_sadness basic_goodness g.o.d = gentle. open, discipline sorry i've been kinda busy lately dude. try me the next time you find yourself near some internet 111112 ... unhinged skimming off the fat to leave behind the tasty goodness unhinged_in_seattle 111213 ... thy thats the spirit! 111214 ... The Man I staring reading these words again. and the I fucking thought these were my words. dammit all thy you were, are, and will be a good shit. take my comments as you will. keep on brother.....keep on. 120715 ... LIa To retain innocence through all pushing and battering from the outside (world) is the greatest strength there is. Though the world would have us believe just the opposite. 120716 ... unhinged is like peeling back layer after layer of an onion; way more painful than i imagined it could be all my years of avoidance added a heavy burden of words_unsaid letters_unsent 130926 what's it to you? who go blather from