as_if_time_had_just_begun fyn gula He saw many horses running straight down the escarpment and he knew from climbing it how steep it was and couldn't see how they could survive the fall if one slipped. one would slip, he knew. all would fall and death was certain. and when he realized she was bareback amongst the herd he knew why she had chosen to end her life in this way, at this time, and at this place. so he ran forward until he cut off the herd, through a short cut only deer and rabbits knew about. the horses spooked at his sudden presence, stopping to discover who he was, if their fear was justified. she saw him then, the wild look on his face, the erratic breathing. she dismounted and the horses began eating, heads to the lush, green growth. "how did you find me here?" she asked, wiping at the pollen collected on the front of his shirt, feeling his heart racing. "i never wanted you to go," he said, and each word was sounded out like the final ones he would ever say. she smiled and waited until his breathing was normal and then clapped her hands two times as hard as she could. the noise was like thunder when it is unexpected. when the horses heard it, they separated again and ran towards the origin of their travel, leaving the two alone with each other, as if time had just begun. 000301 ... jg Time has yet to begin. Until I find you-my time stands still. 020807 ... farmfish wake from your sleepwalking, time has just begun. thee time to be livin' your life. 021213 ... Deomis The sun rose in vibrant shades of pink, and purples, and oranges. Each color staining the clouds with their rich intoxicating look. The dew-dropped grass was fresh under my feet; every breath of the morning breeze was making my mind drunk. The colors spun about me and I felt as if I just reached up, I could reach the soft clouds that drifted through the faded blue heavens. The softly shimmering stars were still visible in the darker parts of the sky, looking as if angels glowing brightly down upon the fragile inhabitants of the world I stood upon. The sweet murmers of the waking world reached my ears, and the world appeared to me in a new way. Away from the sounds of the world, it's gleaming cities and fast-paced lives, I saw the world as if for the first time. My eyes were as if new, and all apeared as if time had just begun. Each silver gossamer of time streching out in my mind as if an infinite universe of possiblities. 040509 ... Syrope i'm discovering things again things that make me happy this weekend has been like a summer break...time's sped up, i don't have enough to spend with who i want to spend it with, but at the same time it's gone in slow motion. i don't want to take this last exam tomorrow. i'm ready to start something new. in so many ways 040509 ... unhinged when i'm with you or even just thinking of you being lonely and sad feels far away like another life and the clouds can't reach me and the rain evaporates before it touches me my lips no longer down at the corners something immediately more important about the way your arms feels around me something in the way our lips reach for each other the clouds don't reach me our heat turns the rain into a halo of steam you make me want to say all the things i can't say you make it impossible for me to be sad you or even just the thought of you pull my lips up at the corners i leave this undone 090608 ... hsg obliterated 090625 ... In_Bloom I can pretend and sometimes it feels right 090626 ... unhinged . time has started all over again with_you cautiously_optimistic 140225 what's it to you? who go blather from