artificial
Quintessensual Let's say it's official:
An artifice is artificial.
Still no artifice does not mean true,
like not red does not mean blue.
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valis strawberry fields;
nothing is real ...
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andrea fake like the tan of my skin
you push your way inside my heart
words disguised as promises and
loving touches nothing more than lies
decode your ways for me
can't i see who i'm loving?
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formica fake sux.

sorry i'm not as great as all these others before me. but it sux.
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girl hollywood 000327
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aeiou we all are 001021
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splinken i am. purely. yep.

this is not some egocentric_self_loathing crap, either.

i like my artificial self.
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distorted tendencies Artificial Intelligence Units, please gather for your aesthetic cleansing. 010919
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caveman I have a different artificial experience for you. One that has been framed by a tiny white lie, sealed by a superficial hug, and stamped by the words I love you. Could this sound familiar to anyone out there?
Reading between the lines has always been a way to survive, but the one time I let down my guard, trusting the person standing next to me, is how I got hurt the worst.
Good times gone bad, loss of self control.
Fuck, I'm left all alone standing in the artificial rain
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caveman I have a different artificial experience for you. One that has been framed by a tiny white lie, sealed by a superficial hug, and stamped by the words I love you. Could this sound familiar to anyone out there?
Reading between the lines has always been a way to survive, but the one time I let down my guard, trusting the person standing next to me, is how I got hurt the worst.
Good times gone bad, loss of self control.
Fuck, I'm left all alone standing in the artificial rain
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ClairE Just because it's fake doesn't mean it's artificial. 011206
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unhinged artificial = artful

archaic english is a beautiful thing
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Annie111 In fourth grade, we went to school on a farm.
That's just the way things are done Down Under.
So one day, Stocky asked us what another word for fake was, and
I said "artificial"
And he said, "Well done! For getting that right, you get to manage the incubator!"
So I hatched three little chicks
Yellow puffs
From the foam cocoon
Once i accidentally left the lid off when i rotated the smooth eggs
And I got yelled at.

Stocky was tough, he didn't accept bullshit from anyone.
I heard once he hit a kid.
But he was a tough German-Australian farmer,
What do you expect.
Sometimes a swift kick up the behind
Is just what a brat needs.
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Syrope i dont know why my body feels this way
i'm so scared being alone when it gets this bad
but no amount of trembling and crying is going to bring you back

gone a few hours

you've been gone almost 5

and i'm just glad, you know, that you're choosing to support the right people. like your little pledging buddy who doesn't return your calls,
because i'm sure it's really important to her that you're there tonight

i just like how you can't say no to anyone but me.

well, that's not true. you can't say no to me either. you just hem and fidget and change the subject out of answering me, and then when i send an email to ask again, sure i'll get an answer, i'm flat out ignored. i wish you'd just told me no. the first thing in a long time i'm *really* proud of and you don't have the decency to give me an answer. it's ok. i'll go alone and sit among all the people with someone there to be proud of them. dont fucking worry about it.

i thought it was just you didn't want to feel obligated

but
i mean, it turns out you want to support... her

so thats why i'm all alone right now

but it doesn't explain next week

you don't even waste time thinking of a creative way to turn me down when i need your support

it's fine.
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syrope it's december 10 for christ's sake 051210
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oren I_am artificially alive.

There's an electronic device sending signals to my_heart so that it will maintain a normal beat pattern.

I_am alive.
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sirflaccid I don't think any of us truly know what the real thing is anymore. 060403
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