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mitra nice...forver after 20... 010520
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tiar is this the fuckin age when were not "teens" anymore but where younger than any adult. Wait, ull go on.. 010603
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x 21 is not so different 020905
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~gez~ are 18 year olds not classed as adults? there are in my country. and therefore when you reach 20 you are older than 18 year olds, though even though they are still tennagers, they are adults 020905
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no reason apparently..technically... 020919
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21 When I was this, I wanted to be 18 again. 031110
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ClairE I definitely feel different, but that's only coincidence. My life happens to be changing, and I should be excited, but mostly I am just learning that it's the same old stupid shit. Like, what need really is. Like, love at its worst is something rubberbanded to your heart and it pinches and snaps and bruises you. Like...always. I hope the same awesome shit comes back to me as well.

I do remember being excited about things. I do remember not being alone. I also remember that I felt it coming on those times, and now I have a feeling that it will be a lonely road for a while.
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nonlucid caught in between 10 and 20 and i'm just dreaming, counting the ways to where you are 040701
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dries&hardens is fast approaching while no age seems suitable. as though I haven't completed the necessary objectives to acquire any given age, except maybe somewhere in the single digits- maybe. 060104
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jane you'll_never_be_a_teenager_again 060104
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dries&hardens is teaching me an awful lot about anticipation.
i will not miss this limbo.
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poop Lets see how much longer you have to live... 21 (YOU CAN DRINK AT A BAR!) 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 (notice grey hair yet?) 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 (Mid-Life Crisis) 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 (Retire frome that wage slave job) 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 ((Most likely to die at the following ages: 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 If you make it this far)) Isn't life just way too short to do nothing? 100802
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re_alisma i'm kind of like a not totally inexperienced twenty year old in the sexual encounter department. but that's just because my mind is just so damn sexy. who needs real, actual sex? truth is, i probably do, but the illness, the sexy mind, blah blah blah.

celibate for, mmmm, who's counting? _____ years. it's good, it's bad, it's whatever. at least my body is pretty used to being on it's own and not longing for other bodies. that's the best benefit. there are some monks that aren't telling fairy stories about celibacy. but it's not all roses, either. there's definitely quirks that turn into extremes that turn into problems, in the mind-body system. i guess it's all just a little bit more uncommon than the typical list of sexual needs. and that could always turn into a problem. mostly a mental problem and you just have to know how to deal with it, without too too much trial and error. i'm not consciously this way, it's just the way it has so far turned out. i was too ill. also, no friends or family members had any good ideas for who to date, and i would prefer networking through familiars before trusting an internet site or whatever. i don't numb any of this away, in any way, either. i just kind of neglect the issue, so it gets all morphy.
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