blather_experience2 unhinged it's a strange thing when you know people through a machine. when i talk in the little windows, the people i know, their faces shine through the glare of the screen. the people i don't know, the glare is blank, absent on the day the pictures were taken for the yearbook. blather is so much easier for me because there are no faces. no voices, no puppy dog eyes, just words. he always talked to me, patted me on the shoulder, let me be afraid, told me it was going to be okay. and i was so nervous because i knew that after all this time, there was going to be a face to go with the name. and somehow even though i'd never seen a picture i knew it was him, in the big yellow rain coat that said something about va beach on the back of it, but i didn't want to go up to him. there is something to be said for being able to hide behind the comfort of your own words. i got there early so we could 'hang out' but my hands were shaking. faces scare me. and his band went on stage and played and i was pleasantly surprised. and i shook my ass and yelled and heckled and read like a madwoman with my shaking hands. it was my home and faces i had never seen but knew were there. he didn't have as obvious of an accent as i thought he would until he got a little more drunk and his words started to slur together a bit. and all the things he said and all the things he didn't say, i knew what he meant because i knew him here and i'm sure he knew me the same way. so i think i could safely say that my blather_friends are some of my best friends. maybe i don't know what you look like, i've never heard your voice, but we leave something here that is beyond noticeable in the real world. and i couldn't stop my hands from shaking because you knew me better than almost anyone in the world knows me. the nyabinghi is a place where time stops, the dirt of youngstown collects, jesus stares at you. i was so comfortable to be myself because i knew you already knew my self. i think someday more of us should congregate there. we could stare at all the cute little asses and get drunk and listen to god's band play. 020331 ... unhinged she sat down across the aisle in the wedding cake of a room and i knew it was her from the first second. i was sitting with jake and robert and my heart started to get all fluttery. now i had even more reason to play well and my stomach started to get all nervous. it was the most atrocious piece i played there all summer, but it was just me and him and her. scary. and after the shostakovich was over and everyone filtered out into the lobby, i was standing with jake and saw her looking around and tapped her on the shoulder and whispered 'sass' into her ear and she turned around with the biggest smile and gave me a hug. we walked a few blocks up to the coffee shop because i wanted a salad for dinner and she watched me eat and we both blushed and talked for awhile. the people at the table next to us seemed to be listening to our conversation. she listened intently. and i just babbled and babbled the way i am known to do, especially when i am nervous. then we caught the bus together back towards campus. i like riding the bus. she got off on the same stop to catch her connection and gave me another hug. i wish we could have hung out a little more. 030118 ... meta meta 080928 what's it to you? who go blather from