horses_are_evil_evil_evil ashmanzhou spent half of last week and some of this one in hospital on account of the damned equine fool got sent on retreat apparently i need rest and relaxation after 'recent events in my life' it may contrive i do went to a place out in the mountains horse riding hiking and card games all with seven other girls was fine for the first few hours managed to ignore their sickening drivel and spend time in isolation thinking about the hole my life is in then got caught 'deliberately dissociating' myself from others and we went horse riding my horse was annoying never went where i wanted kept putting my face into branches it spooked about halfway round the course the furthest away from the retreat centre dropped me to the ground i think i blacked out woke up with the face of the lady worried staring into mine i started laughing at this she got angry and grabbed my arm told me to stop fooling around i got the image of my wrist flopping before i started screaming the pain didnt stop in the end i got a mild concussion and broken wrist filed a complaint about the woman and got her fired-laughed some more came home yesterday got a feeling of deja vu i get to take painkillers now! i have a cast on my right arm and hand so i have to type with my left hand so this has taken me 27 minutes to type 030909 ... notme . can i just say i think horsies are lovely, just for the record ashmanzhou please don't bite when i say thank_you for writing i am always breathless_in_pursuit_of_you your words i cannot describe -nevermind her she's babbling 030910 ... ashmanzhou i cant say i entirely agree with thee mayhap recent events hath tampered my opinions thanks maybe its the painkillers screwing my mind back to what it should be but that almost means something to me 030910 ... notme i'm scared of riding horses cause i'm scared of falling cause i'm scared of dying cause i know death is maybe not the end but perhaps the beginning of every life i will ever live and maybe i am already dead maybe i was never born i don't know what i'm saying but it's true 030910 ... Strideo I haven't rode in a long time. A horse did step on my foot at my Grandma's when I was a kid. ... 030910 ... mippymoomoo I don't like horses and they don't like me back. It all started with a bad experience I had at the state fair when I was three. My dad wanted me to see the horses, but as soon as we stepped into the straw-ridden stables, and I could hear the horses stamping feet; I had an instant feeling of fear and a sort of annoyance. Why do they have to scare me with their stamping feet? Anyway, we walked through to about the midpoint of the barn, and my dad stopped to talk to one of the horse-owners. I believe he knew the man. Dad asked the man if it was ok for him to show me the horse. 'Oh, sure!' answered the man with enthusiasm that I still remember. foreshadowing, i guess 'Cause when my dad (unexpectantly to me) whisked me up off the floor by my armpits to put me face to face with the brown horse - I freaked. It felt like I went cold in that milisecond before the horse nipped at my face! grrrr! Then he/she/it began to stamp it's hooves a little violently as I screamed, and cried. My dad put me down (probably because I was flailing my arms and feet, punching and kicking him). Before I knew it, I was out of the stables, already feeling much better to be out of the house of nastiness. Ever since then, even if I am 15 feet away from a horse, I think they can sense my complete distaste and disregard for them, because they will stamp their feet and back up. Looking at me.. evil, nasty horses. 040922 what's it to you? who go blather from