deb jennifer deb hogs the bed 991221 ... deb well honey, how did you get home again? oh wait, i drove, so we're both alive... sure i hog the bed but how often am i sharing it? ::sniffle:: that's sad to know, isn't it? 991221 ... deb ::smiles and shakes her head:: last night you would have been making a big deal about how "deb" is "bed" spelled backwards 991221 ... jennifer I thought this wasn't a message board.... and thanks for the coffe and half of the pie... ..::wink wink::.. 991222 ... andrea glad to have met her and amazed at the things she and i have in common even though it may be unspoken and possibly still unknown wonderful company when you have an unlimited amount of coffee, sugar, and cream 991231 ... deb yes, this is me, and i am a crazy little thing i write incessantly and i smile too much sometimes, and i write little things i hope they'll never read because they're about those people who i once tried to tie down much too long and i know that now now that i'm smiling again and i don't notice that i never quit 000101 ... andrea i know she is awake & spilling her thoughts as i attempt to do mine but all of the words in my head seem to stop once they reach my wrists & i can't help but wonder what she thinks of this odd, beautiful, new world that has just been created copyright 2000 000102 ... deb she says i am up spilling my thoughts perhaps i am up dumping them out to do spring cleaning... and as easily as that i clean clean clean -where's the clorox?- and throw away the ideas i no longer like storing those i do in pretty rubbermaid upon the shelves and i pick up the garbage and throw it out but all anyone else can see is the mess i had to pick through last night 000111 ... bellee deb tried to kill herself with a lady bic..the pink plastic kind with daisies and a moisturizing strip..it took her forever just to get through the skin...she was just tired of being invisible. 000424 ... angie i like a song called deborah by beck. you people should look into it. its pretty funny. 020510 ... king kai there are many words to describe someone like you. there are many words to describe someone like me. i'm glad you're not like me. people like me make the world for people like you a sometimes unbearable place. i guess i'm trying to tell you i've seen the error of my ways and i know the time we spent together was short and long ago. i've seen you several times recently, but am unsure if you'd even care to see me again. i disappeared. i'm sorry. however, i'm glad i at least got to hold your hand and hold you close, before i fucked things up as i so predicted. what an off year...2000...you're still thought of. 020901 ... Elzbieta My friend Debs is having twin boys as I type. Good luck Debs, be well. 020902 ... phil have you ever heard of a place called Das Reinland? 030305 ... deb You didn't fuck things up, kai... no more than I would have, I am quite sure. I would have to say while things could have been much more than they were it probably is a good thing they ended where they did. Putting a person upon a pedestal rarely works out, how can a person ever live up to what someone else has built them up to? That being said, all I ever really wanted was to be just me, with just you. No pretense. No crutches. No worries of not being good enough. I'm not sure that ever would have happened, things being as they were. Still, sometimes I wonder... 100119 ... deb Yes, this is the old deb back again sometimes I post as becca instead as it's really my name. They called me Deb because I shaved my head the summer I was 18, and I was inspired, at least in part, by Empire_Records. So yes, this is me, divorcing after 9 years, 2 kids, 2 cats, 1 rabbit, and 1 house later... How strange it is to be back here... Strange and lovely. 100917 what's it to you? who go blather from