what_i_want_to___do___but_cant Rhin angeldust i can hear it calling...come and get me, come and get me...come fly with me. you all know how much i want to fly. hell, i have even prayed to god, asking him to make me into a bird, although it didn't work. didn't surprise me. we all know what to expect of god, don't we? come on! oh yeah, for all those who don't know...god doesn't make deals! i'm going to be partying tonight, on the 29th floor, of a semi-posh hotel. i just keep thinking...29 stories...how much air time would i have? don't you think it's ironic that i am 29 years old? i think it's a sign. i only have one question? ...would this little excapade be considered suicide, or just an unfortunate consequence, of a truly untapped thrill venture? fuck. i can't do that. who loves life more than me? who would write all those erotic blathes, that i'm infamous for? who would be there to pick my family up off of the floor? who would be able to replace me? i deserve life, and... life deserves me damnit! 010117 ... god yeh, i don't make deals. i DO jerk off while reading your "pussy" blathe. 010117 ... Rhin God, I can't believe you said that! 010117 ... god hey, it's hot. 010117 ... hoodrat i agree, it's hot. i certainly don't take it quite as far. sorry rhin. 010117 ... Thyartshallshant *cheers for god* Yep, Rhin is one sexy girl. But the one at united_perverts_of_blathe is a billion times better. 010117 ... Effingham Fish Just let go. 011203 ... dudeinanigloo i wish i could suck my own dick... :( 040121 ... brain stew jump into your bed and snuggle into your chest. it will be warm and the sheets will smell like you, and you will smile against my cheek. kiss you in the rain, wrapped in your jacket, in your arms, where i can hear your heartbeat. lie in the grass, fingers twined, and talk for hours and hours and watch the sky. watch you blink and breathe and laugh and look up at me and smile. do it 'cause i can, because you're mine. maybe in another life, when we are both cats. 040121 ... Lint Lover I want to tell you that I still love you and that we're soulmates and that I will wait for you forever. I want to go to your house, knock on the door and jump into your open arms and kiss you one million times 040523 ... dB i want to hold the world on my shoulders like atlas. i want to take that burden and feel the weight of it on my back. i want to know where the pain is and relieve it as best i can. i want to understand everything. i want impossible things. it's like the lyric: "if i had powers of great unlimit i'd stop the world put it right, and re-spin it." i know, i sound mad. i just can't shake this intense feeling of responsibility. it seems the more i learn about the world, the more i feel i need to take care of it. it's like a gravitational force pulling me in. the more i try to ignore it, the more it pulls at me. this is going to sound so pretentious, but it feels like i'm destined to become somthing out-of-the-ordinary. i don't want this to happen. i don't know how exactly it's going to happen, but it FEELS like it's going to happen. eventually something is going to snap and i won't be able to sit idle any longer while i see all this crazyness and destruction going on all around us. the trouble is that i know i am capable of doing this, i just don't want it to happen. i'm scared. tell me, am i the only one that feels this way? like there is some kind of magnetic force pulling on your mind and dragging it around for some unknown purpose? do you feel it as strongly as i do? or am i just mad? your thoughts please to db@e3.net.nz many thanks 050424 ... rhin come back to life, because hell is repetition. 050424 what's it to you? who go blather from