my_heart_is_not_that_strong Somebody that I used to know I hated last night. You will never know how much. I can't tell you like that. I hope eveything was written right in my note. I never meant to give it to you. I just write notes sometimes. The mix Cd I hope you like. I know I cant get enough of it. And there i go not being emotional again. It ripped me apart haveing to tell you that I couldnt be with you. So i give you a hug and run to my wonderful boyfriend, still wishing I could be with that asshole boy I just left. My friends say you are no good for me, that is why your efforts were being dissuaded. And with such a perfect boy on my arm, how could my heart fight with the obvious logic? My heart has never been very strong. But then this mix I listen to starts wearing at me. See I've got to explain: Im starting to fashion an idea in my head, I could justify myself; but it's just not coming through. We're all puzzels to be figured out. I cant make it on my own. Five more minutes and I'll be there inside your door, screaming please dont drive me home and holding you in my arms tonight. i'm losing the grip on what i used to hold, i wish it was anyone but me. But I know im a mess you dont want to clean up and its been so long since youve been just a friend of mine. Tell me where it all went wrong; inside I'm screaming I love you and everything else is irrelivant to the story so far. I know I'm just chasing ghosts, but its eating me alive to leave you. So please be kind if I'm a mess. I've always spoken better in song. 050707 ... Somebody that I used to know Thank you. For always being there. 061112 ... Christ without the cross My heart is not strong enough to deal with all of these games. If you want to play with someone find someone other than me. I am going to leave this alone. I am going to leave all of these games behind. I want something more for myself. God, im so angry. God, im scared. My heart is not strong ehough to go through this again. But what would love do God? How would love give what it doesn't have or doesn't believe it has anymore (I DON'T WHICH ONE IS WORST). Forgive me for what i am about to do. Forgive me for not being strong enough. Let it go man. Let it go. I need to grow. I need to find myself. I can't afford to get lost in you again. it took me forever to find my way out. My heart is not that strong. it doesn't have the strenght to take that kind of punishment. I am not blaming you though i would love to blame you for everything. I am just saying that i am not strong enough, not secure enough in myself to love you and not want to hate you when i see you flirting with someone else. 061113 ... hsg run, bike, hold_your_breath. lift the weight of you heart & it becomestronger. community_service_and_laughter make the heart expand. it's true. give, and ur heart will better pump giving blood. fear, anger, & greed create heart_disease. 061115 ... falling_alone 4 weeks of nothing then you wrote to me and plans are in the making. do we both miss each other as much i we think we do. i know i missed you more than i let on. your depression turned into mine. 061205 ... sab my heart is getting stronger 061205 ... oren My_heart beats faster than it would without the little electrodes. 061206 ... *Amy* why you are online and you don`t chat with me?¿ I feel so hopeless....this anguish is killing me, it`s so withering, I just can`t bare it...my heart is not that strong 061206 what's it to you? who go blather from