musicologist klarchen I must assert myself into musicologist mode for the next little while. Oh, if only I could bypass all this history and go straight to your hands. All I really want is to watch your fingers in striking motion. And your fingers connect to your wrists, your forearms, your shoulders, your neck. your lips. And ultimatley your eyes, So you could see how much I adore you. And how much I care. 000728 ... kendra this word just came up on the main blather page. and it reminded me of my pathetic summer state. and, ugh, how could i write that? what was i thinking? 001210 ... grendel hmm, personally, i rather like it. 001211 ... unhinged something that is totally unrelated to the original blather/poem, which i thought was beautiful by the way: why do musicology and music theory exist? why must the human mind analyze everything down to it's smallest parts? i know these things exist in part to justify the significance of music in our culture, but what is wrong with beauty? why do we have to analyze it? isn't it enought that music is just sheer beauty plain and simple? do you honestly think that everytime bach sat down to write a fugue he thought of every little rule that we now associate with fugues? i think not. that's why his fugues are so hard to analyze in these parameters. bach fucking wrote fugues because they sounded cool. he didn't think "well now that the exposition has been completed in all three voices i must put an episode next which cannot contain a full presentation of the subject." there have always been rules for composition i suppose but everyone breaks them. let us take dear chopin for example: he wrote chords in enharmonic spellings for ease of fingering at the piano; he didn't give a fuck that a century later theory students were going to struggle with analyzing the fucked up way he spelled chords. see how useless your theory is now Dr. Largent? at least you admit it... why can't we all just walk into dennys and hear the moonlight sonata just for the sheer joy of it not even thinking about the borrowed chords that beethoven used to write it? 15 more weeks and it will be done forever.. 001211 ... unhinged unfortunately, it will never be done forever. once the human brain has tools, especially my human brain, it will not abandon them. since my body will break down at a relatively young age, i've always subconciously considered some fringe career in music. my performing days are already tragically numbered. and with my sore spot for the puzzle of history, maybe that's it. after the paper i wrote last semester for baroque opera class, i'm really interested in ferreting out and popularizing the relatively unknown violin/composers of the early baroque. and after all the incredibly dry academic writing i had to read for an entire semester, i would love to add a little enjoyment and beauty into writing about something so beautiful as music. i have all these ideas about how to change the world but my singularity and lack of faith in myself vanquish them rather easily. 050928 ... unhinged . 131003 ... epitome of incomprehensibility What you wrote a few years ago. That would be a cool thing to do. And it doesn't have to be a main career; Ezra Pound, with his violinist girlfriend Olga Rudge (or maybe the other way around because history can be sexist that way) helped to popularize Vivaldi? (I can't endorse a lot of what Pound stood for, and I still think Joyce was the better writer, but literary irrelevancies aside I think musicology is cool.) 131003 ... e_o_i Gah. Didn't mean to put a question mark after Vivaldi. Not a question. 131003 ... unhinged in the interim i have found some beautiful funerary violin music that has been collected and transcribed from the baroque notation by a british man i practice it often and use it as a playing example in my teaching 131007 what's it to you? who go blather from