minor_setback birdmad i've been outsourced. fuck 110611 ... hsg how's_that 110611 ... birdmad de-jobbed after 12 years on one hand it certainly sucks because i don't have much saved so i won't be able to stay out-of-work for too long, though i do qualify for unemployment, although i'd rather not have to use it. I can't stand the idea of not doing SOMETHING on the other hand, the truth is that i was beginning to get both complacent and burned out doing what i was doing, i did my job well, but the extent to which i was ceasing to care was beginning to take its toll on the quality of my work and i can imagine it was only a matter of time before i fucked up and got fired. I was starting to crack a bit. mostly, i'm trying to wrap my head around the uncertainty of having to go out and re-enter the job market. So, to be sure, i am a bit nervous, but i really do want to be optimistic and say that maybe this change was for the best. It's come at an inopportune time, but i guess the test of what sort of person i am now will be how i manage to get myself through this. hmmm... 110612 ... lg another door will open, just keep your senses heightened and eyes peeled.... change_is_good 110613 ... . . 110627 ... h|s|g B, since you're starting_overish do_something_you_love 110627 ... birdmad most of the things i love are fun but not particularly profitable. I actually like doing "customer service" jobs as long as the customers are not abysmally stupid and unable to get out of their own way got to do down to the Human Resources office at my old job and use the job-search facility to print up some copies of my resume, go get a haircut (neither my shoulder-length hair nor the funky chop-job i inflicted on myself last week are gonna cut it for interviews) head down to a job-fair on the other side of town this afternoon and then head to an interview way the hell out in one of the more far-flung suburbs tomorrow (This town and its suburbs are the bad_example of urban planning, no-one here ever thought to build up instead of out, so we rape more desert every year and more of the atmosphere with these far-flung commuter communities) I just wish they would have waited until we had any kind of decent weather to do this to me instead of shuffling me out the door at the goddamned peak of the hot season 113 degrees is not optimal job-searching weather in "Professional attire" 110627 ... birdmad i don't have the gear to be considered by any bands looking for a vocalist (and although i have flashes of brilliance, i'm only an OK singer at best...besides, pushing 40 is a little late in life to start indulging any bullshit rock-star fantasy i may have ever carried around with me) 110627 ... Ouroboros I caught a ride from SF to LA once with a late 40s/early 50s woman who told me with joy and excitement about how she recently began singing for a rock band (after never doing anything but singing in the showers her whole life) and was well received by the band/fans/public. 40 is not too late to start up that rocker dream! :) 110627 ... girl i hear people fighting, some guy is yelling "fuck off". i'm on the front porch. i can hear both clocks letting out the 11:00 pm chimes. a honda civic just passed as the oury grips on my bike gently rest on the back of my rocking chair. some annoying douches just walked by and i'm tired and sorta hallucinating and i really don't know why, so i'm going to try to get my cute ass back to sleep, hopefully, i'm not going to, but i'm slap happy, hallucinating, laughing and i'm not drug or alchol... oh and i'm rambling... i never do this i swear to a tofurky sandwich . 110627 ... . lay off the pipe 110702 ... Girl Yeah, but I didn't post those and this is so over. 110702 ... grrl well smarty pants i'll just switch my name to grrl. 110713 what's it to you? who go blather from