signs_of_a_relationship unhinged hickey_outrage your toothbrush in my bathroom your favorite kind of icecream in my freezer our favorite condoms in the bowl on the bedside table i know to let you sleep in the morning and everywhere we go your friends tell me how great you are and_then tell you how great i am the halo of love around us gets brighter everyday 090627 ... danny nice. 090627 ... In_Bloom It's beautiful, even head spinning Because I know the feeling Drink it up Ever little bit, be gracious for it and amplify it as best you can One good hit can heal nine misses 090627 ... unhinged it is nice; really fucking nice. i feel like the load i was carrying around doesn't even exist anymore. funny how people stumble across each_other and turn out to be just what the other needed. (blather reminds me of that often) 090628 ... unhinged his friends that are girls make it a point to tell me that they like me and they don't usually like the girls he dates, that i am good for him. (all the love and hugs and compliments i've been getting lately have rearranged my face and my heart into a happier version of myself; maybe the best version of myself) 090706 ... Soma Do not pass no, no, you never would slow children at play thats me, you know, and as slow as i am you are always patient i am always amazed you talk about me all the time to all your friends and i love you more than anything i have ever known and i hope that i love you the way that you love me i won't let this bump of insecurity bear you away from me no, no do not pass. 090707 ... unhinged when he hurts i hurt when we are apart i ache to be near him when he is hungry i want to feed him that we are more complete together than we are separately, apart 090707 ... unhinged that i quelled my habit of the cut_and_run and now that i am on the opposite side of a rough patch i see the value of working through things (once again making me a better version of myself; i re-read the things i wrote about him when i first met him and in the reminding i found myself smiling) 090806 ... past walking away from her work together, hand in hand. 090806 ... In_Bloom Non "man" soap Lotion Lingerie out in the open *Giving my boots a place in the closet* 090806 ... Twitch How'd this turn out? 180115 ... unhinged i found out he was with someone else for a significant part of our relationship and that all signs were pointing to him cheating on me (again?). i had to stop going to the bar where we met cause his friends kept trying to get us back together. when i did start going back into that bar he thought i wanted back on his dick and wrote me a vaguely insulting letter about how he didn't want to get back with me. i told him to fuck off and started going to the shambhala center up the road more regularly meditation is about the only thing that connects the old me on this page to the current me 180115 ... Twitch Funny how stuff works out. 190425 ... unhinged i fall in_love way too easily and care way more than the situation warrants. it has become a pattern in my love life. i am ready to go back to being a celibate hermit. do i have to beg you to care? should i have to beg you to care? should i have to beg you to respond? 190430 ... Twitch A part of me resonates with this. I love easily. I mean shit, if I can love ice cream, love a puppy, and love a type of food, I can love that lady at the gas station. Falling in love, however, is rarer for me. My brain isn't as sticky as some with pair bonding. But when it happens I am completely and utterly bonded. Stay strong Soul Sista 190501 ... unhinged i convinced myself to get out of my head and talk to him. i need to quit projecting my past onto this man. there are hidden depths i am just now reaching. i also need to meditate and yoga more 190501 ... unhinged poof gone 190502 ... unhinged (the depths were darker than i thought) 190504 what's it to you? who go blather from