the_last_time unhinged i can't write about it i can't speak or think anything to stop this perpetuating madness i never used to doze day dream my attention was held by the things in front of me but now you are the only thing in front of me the light that pulls us over to the other side and reality always pulls me back this exercise in futility the biggest lie i have ever told myself i can forget you bury you place you far away from the front of my mind i will never tell you the truth because you won't tell me what i want to hear it's 10 0'clock where is your heart? and this will be harder than anything else the way you'll look over her with adoring eyes open your fist that was my heart come to me just come 010227 ... nah....! unhinged, that was fucking beautiful. nice work. 020109 ... nah....! i bet you have a million other poems lying around this place that i have yet to fall upon the pages of. now i'm super excited to read more of your words. 020109 ... unhinged thanks dear even though it makes me sad to think about this particular one, it makes me smile to know you like me. i do like that whole approval thing. 020109 ... niki then share more...please?!?!?!?!?! 020109 ... Arwyn I saw you.... I kissed you and put my entire heart and soul into it. I told you I loved you and would see you soon. I held you as tightly as I possibly could so you would know what you mean to me. I held back my tears so you wouldn't feel worse than I knew you already did. I watched you hold back your tears, and harden yourself just so you could make it out that door. I saw you start to lose it as you got into the car... I cried as you disappeared from sight and went up to our bed and cried myself to sleep. 020109 ... unhinged fish_on_a_hook shush burning_eyes it_was_real open_wounds i_am_here dramatic_irony soul plate_tectonics 020109 ... ClairE I wonder what my_last_blathe will be... 020109 ... Scorshie The last time I saw you act like this We were kids 030513 ... Bird Jagger and Grendel Richards "maybe the last time i don't know" 030514 ... unhinged if i would have known it would be the last time i got to hold your hand i would have held it more tightly if i would have known it would be the last time i got to fuck you i would have (oh wait; the last time we fucked i did you right) if i would have known it would be the last time i got to kiss you i would have reached up and grabbed your face so that you couldn't back away too quickly if i would have known it would be the last time i got to talk to you without pain, fighting, silence i would have had something more profound to say that when i look at you i can see right through you to the parts you don't want to look at and i still love you all the same but_now i'm not sure i can talk to you because the last short conversation we had i thought i heard you say 'i can't even care about myself right now, so i can't care about you' sic all i do is care about you and you don't have the energy for me and i'm angry the last time we talked you told me you couldn't be bothered after all the hell you've put me through i should have listened months ago when you told me to walk_away 100313 ... unhinged (and over a year later i'm trying harder to make it really the last time and the vision of one last kiss is still haunting me if i would have known i would have made that kiss on new years eve a little better but i remember it the way i pressed my lips firmly against yours for longer than i really had to so you couldn't deny that i_love_you ) 110406 what's it to you? who go blather from