dax just wondering insomnia? 020902 ... just curious too that's a given i figure it's still just a little past 1 so I still have a chance to make it to sleep earlier than last night (5am) who are you? 020902 ... spider from mars it's me. hello. 020902 ... spider from mars i didn't take into account that you're in a different time zone than i, though..... i did know. i just forgot. or something. 020902 ... daxle if you wish to check your muffins for grr_bacon... use the Front entrance (wink wink) [hey easy on the bong_treads] 020902 ... spider from mars say *what*? you talkin to me, dax? 020902 ... ldaex ok let me just say this: HOT REALLYMAD BUNS 020902 ... spider from mars you know what i can't fucking stand? when i choose to write under a random name for one blathe and it links back to some other random person's fucking email who has blathed however many times under that random fucking name that i just blathed under. fuck it. 020902 ... spider from mars it's okay if you don't listen to me, dax. i don't really expect ya to. i'm just writing in here because i know you're around. thanks for being around, at any rate. 020902 ... spider from mars i'm an occasional insomniac. but even then, not really. 'cause i always eventually sleep. daaaaah. eep! 020902 ... adlayxslsea 4am i wrote this letter pearls, little girls, dreaming of maria callas (whoever she is) who'd have thought tomorrow would be so strange 020902 ... e-bow the spider will you live to 83? will you ever welcome me? 020902 ... huh? HUH?! what the fuck does it mean to e-bow, anyway? i've always wondered this, ever since the first time i heard that song. 020902 ... huh? HUH?! because ya know, that shit's not in the fucking dictionary. i think stipe made it up. 020902 ... but jesus tapdancing christ it's a fantastic song 020902 ... the spider agrees agreed 020902 ... someone else who agrees jesus_tapdancing_christ, you're right. 020902 ... daxle i believe he said the e-bow is an instrument i could be wrong i usually am 020903 ... there http://www.steve-lawson.co.uk/ebow.htm 020903 ... no one in particular i miss you 021128 ... dax you have to be someone in particular 021128 ... someone in particular but at least im blurry oh but at least im blurry 021128 ... call me? 530-601-0063 021128 ... dax I guess not... 021128 ... nothingissacred well don't take this wrong (as ifyou could control it if you misinterpret it. puh!) its something like...I just don't think it'll ever be the same. and I don't wish for that, because it was always strained...but I'm pretty sure I'd never be able to see the side of you that i know exists and I would like to know. I'm not going to be one to be dazzled by your beauty and whatnot, I'd probably like to be--it sounds so wonderful and twisty. Its more like. I am not able to have a sort of relationship with you because either i feel too inadequate or empty or I fuck things up or...or...its its a yearning for something I'll never get to see or get to be a part of. Its partially jealousy, even. I hate to admit it. I think I try to get over my jealousy by being a part of the whole interaction i want to be tangled within. Am I making sense? It might take a little effort to understand, not sure. and I miss you, I just don't think I could really be satisfied to talk to you much right now. I've got nothing to say, there would be this confusing tension that should exist.i mean. there is no reason for tension, there just is. I'm not entirely overreacting to anything, its more watered down than it sounds...just simply, that. so I miss you, but besides my lack of conversation, I can't make any long distance calls...the phone bill is gonna be pissy at me. you know who I am, I've only been posting all morning long, so sigh, right? 021128 ... daxle yeah, sigh i didn't think it was you i wouldn't have guessed that you would miss me but i guess i understand and don't worry, i'm not really beautiful 021128 ... nothingissacred no, i know you lie about that, you are. 021128 ... god i never thought you were a dude 030709 ... sixteen me neither. that counts for something msybe. either way, youre crushy. 030710 ... pajaro todavia pienso que brillas como una estrella todavia te quiero todavia te amo 030710 ... x i live in oakland now with three cats and one wireless network goodnight 030711 ... x moving hurts 030714 ... jane i understand 030724 ... x i live in oakland now, with two cats, two hipsters, and a wireless network 030912 ... x one cat, one kitten, 2 hipsters (though one is different now), and a questionable wiresless network. 031112 ... x one cat, two strangers, and a wireless router i don't even need 040114 ... whitechocolatewalrus? did you bury the other cat? 040114 ... farkando mondragon did you bury the hipsters? 040114 ... x how'm i gonna get the money? 040115 ... Death of a Rose you could sell your body to science! but hey that's just one idea. write a bestseller? and hey that's another idea. 040115 what's it to you? who go blather from