so_sick_right_now barely breathing and the bus stop seems such a long walk and i can't barely type i'm so tired 041126 ... . i had a dream that everything was dark i opened my eyes in my dream and everything was black 041126 ... . i missed the nine i'm missing the twelve maybe i'll make the 1thirty 041126 ... . maybe i'll go back to bed 041126 ... oldephebe Before I started taking 2k milligrams of vitamin C three times daily I used to get way laid by the flu several times a year. Now I rarely get a stuffy nose. And when I do feel flu symptoms coming on I up the ante to 4K milligrams three times a day with of course plenty of OJ and herbal tea. You can get Vita C in 1000 milligram pils anywhere. So have your hubby or wife or sig other or mom or pop go out and get you some heavy duty vitamin C. The medical establishment will never tell you that 60ml of vita C is processed by the body within the hour, so your vulnerable to the armada of pathogens that have infestated the air the surfaces in our homes and schools and work...blah blah so..pls try prevention and don't get suckered into another $125 dollar flu booster shot ... 041126 ... monee i agree. 041126 ... monee i try to take 10,000 mg of c a day on a regular basis, but sometimes i forget 041126 ... . or don't care) 041126 ... monee my dreams were heavy, too heavy i just feel so tired, so sick right now 041227 ... monee why my still wake why why why am i why am i still am awake why am i am 041228 ... monee waking up is the worst part of my day but it really should be the best 041228 ... sirflaccid I feel like shit. I haven't slept in three days. This is beginning to get old. 041229 ... Freak I've never been happier then I have been lately. Im happy with what happened, Im happy with whats happening, and im happy with whats going to happen. You knew that when I told you I was happy it was real but I know now that when you said you were happy for me it was a complete lie and you can't stand the fact that Im happy having what I have with someone else and you are miserable because you want my happiness to be yours and you can't and will never have it. I am so sick of your bull shit opinions that you give me just in hopes of bringing me down to your level but you can not take my happiness from me. And worst of all your polluting my one sanctuary with this bullshit thats already been said to my face. I know its not making you feel better to post that shit. I have an idea...something your good at...why don't you just call Brandee and talk all the negative crap your little hearts desire. You two seem to get off on that shit so it should make you feel better. Your life has ended and mine is finally beginning. 050106 ... sirflaccid I am so sick of you thinking that it is my goal to bring you down. I am saying what I feel and if that steps on your toes that is not my fault. Considering your nature as a fish. There is a reality in all of this that you refuse to live up to. It is all fine and dandy for you to criticize others for making decisions along the same lines as you. But heaven forbid anyone throws the real world in your face. My life is not consumed with you or bringing you down. It is, however, consumed with the decisions that have been made. They affect me. Or maybe it all just "happened for a reason." 050106 ... somenom ugh gug gug 050601 ... nomme) yuck yuck yuck 050712 ... nom) it's disappointing 051008 ... unhinged it's always nice to hear that your best friend doesn't want to deal with your bullshit anymore 051008 ... nom gruh 060119 ... nom so sick right now 061215 ... nom my mom said "maybe it's from all the tension last night" people were arguing "i tried not to let it affect me" 061215 ... () () 061215 what's it to you? who go blather from