if_everything_happens_for_a_reason birdmad then that's what worries me. i'm not sure i'd want to know or comprehend what a lot of those reasons are. makes it too easy to percieve an unseen hand, good or bad 030219 ... x no, it's precisely the opposite. your lack of knowledge allows you in invent these hands. 030219 ... birdmad reason denotes rationale, rationale denotes plan. if i wasn't still stuck in the office right now and fully switched on this wuld be making my brain hurt. chaotic causality is one thing... reason is another easier to rationalize that "one thing leads to another" and accept a more widespread idea of the domino theory. i can't help but see "reason" as deriving from anything other than plan and plan as deriving from anything other than sentient i'm still trying to shake away threads and tangles of religion and to me the thought of things happening "for a reason" sounds too much like that stuff i used to hear about things that happened being "the will of god" remember, i was neck-deep in theological philosphy until a pretty late point in life so it isn't as easy for me to just separate it out. Locard's principle is in effect, everything leaves its traces behind, for me, in this case, try though i may, i can't help but see "reason" in anthropomorphic terms even when i would rather not as a result, i can't help but see any of my own negative experience whose origins i can't pinpoint back to being the potential consequence of one of my own misdeeds as being either my particular brand of craptastic luck or god/the universe fucking with me i.e. if i did not set in motion a particular boot that kicks my ass, then from whence did it come and why did it do it? what does someone call Cause A on those occasions when they seem to spontaneously experience Effect B out of the blue? good or bad there have been some events whose reasons i understood when they came my way, other things were totally beyond my conception of how and why. I saw no logical reason and thus had only the illogical reason to fall back on it's not so easy. 030219 ... finnmaccruel if you say 'everything happens for a reason' enough times to yourself it starts to sound like 'anything can happen with a razor' 030220 ... no reason then what's mine? 030220 ... x I know it's not that easy. Try tracing things backwards and forwards. Practice. 030220 ... Lilac does that mean that everything was a warning sign? Or a sign that we can get through anything? 030220 ... . . 050122 ... . then our gods are calculating and cruel 050122 ... dandy everything happens for whatever reason you retroactively decide to give yourself faith and power and fuel for the next part of the wild ride. 050123 ... reue then why do i try so damned hard? 050123 ... akuma aoi i still dispute this i can see no reason for much of it. disconnected and random 050808 ... grendel besides, if everything happens for a reason, then what was the reason for yanking my chain and rattling my cage? and if everything is so interconnected, then why are you so surprised by my reaction to all of it? you can't say everything is interconnected and then wonder, after dropping rocks upon the water, why there is mud splashed on you you can't have it both ways. 050808 ... nick cave & the bad seeds "just a microscopic cog in his catastrophic plan designed and directed by his red_right_hand" 060622 ... z everything_happens_everywhere_at_once 060622 ... nom it does because it does 060622 ... dipperwell things absolutely happen for a reason and the reason is: that they were caused by whatever sequence lead up to them for example, the reason someone died is because she was hit by a train if that isn't happening for a reason I don't know what is now, if you what you mean is that there is reasoning behind the things that happen to you that's just silly because events aren't sentient creatures and cannot reason any more than the tick tick tick of time does the only reasoning behind things is the one you yourself apply so in that sense there can be reasoning but you make it yourself kind of like the meaning of life. anyway believing that things happen for the best is a luxury of the privileged tell someone whose family was killed in genocide that it was to "teach you strength" and you see that if everything happens for a reason someone with a lot of power also has a lot of hate is just too tired to be a poet 060622 ... z reason is a human construct 060627 ... z nicely said d. 060627 ... - - 090529 what's it to you? who go blather from