i_cant_sleep Toxic_Kisses Nor since I'm staying @ my house tonight (Meaning my moms here) can I have sex w/ my sweetheart of a guy (and any how he's trying to get some sleep 'cus he must get up early for work in the morn) So it looks like I'll be spending the night @ Blather ^.^ 011216 ... ClairE I know it. Even though I haven't even tried yet. I tried lying in my bed and it smells like you. 011216 ... Rhin i snuggled deep into my down, hoping to drift off peacefully. however, my thoughts keep me awake. i flipped on my stereo as i walked into my living room, and then found my way here. why do i always come back here. it's the blue. it's soothing. i have never liked blather red. it reminds me of blood, and actually makes me anxious. something about this blue... 021125 ... gay gizmo i try. i really do. I even take pills, ut they only put me out for a coupla hours and then I cant sleep for even longer. what to do. maybe something will be on TV. hmmm, nope. maybe htis book will make me sleepy. hmmm, nope. maybe writing this will tire me out. hmmm, nope. goddamn! this is horrible. I will be awake until prbably 5 or 6am, then fall asleep when i dont want to, wake up at around noon and the same thing will happen the next day. this sucks my eyes hurt the blue is soothing though 021126 ... gwyllynne sleep is for the weak and feeble! mwuhahahaha! 021126 ... Toxic_Kisses Than I aparently am quite strong and um, unfeeble(?) Mawahahahaha! Quake in my strength and unfeebleness you weak sleepy feeble humans! 021126 ... rhin after 1am and i'm thinking about nothing. actuallly what i'm thinking about is not worthy of writing about. 060621 ... rhin please just let me sleep. i cant read another book. im already sick of the music on my mp3. ive cleaned off my desk and it looks worse now than it did before. ive read msnbc. ive read blather and its haunting. im breaking my read only rule again. and i miss her. 090510 ... unhinged melatonin 090510 ... j i'm_only_sleeping 090511 ... In_Bloom Unless I feel loved or at least wanted so that there is no fear in giving up to dreams, sure tomorrow will come 090511 ... rhin more and more i find that sleep eludes me. my thoughts control me and sometimes consume me violently. over 13 years i have been here at Blather and while i cannot always find words, i find comfort in reading those of others. i like it here. just a little bit. 130506 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Couldn't sleep until 5 am again. So I read through the zine reviews in the first edition of Broken Pencil - I got two issues of the magazine for free somewhere sometime in Concordia but hadn't read the older one until now. Then it was nice drifting off to the birds chirping. I dreamed I made a landscape through this programming language based on triangles. But the bus wanted to take me to the Holocaust Museum and I didn't want to go there. 130507 what's it to you? who go blather from