unhealthy_substitutes killing time Don't leave me. The fault lies with me and my lies of omission. He can't possibly always know what I want from him. If he stays now, it'll be easier for me to decline another request for my company. I'll be with someone else tonight, and I'll be wondering what it would have been like if he had stayed long enough for me to convince myself that he knew how to make me happy. Hurry... it's not too late. Order me to be where you are. Throw me an offer I can't refuse. I promise I won't. 020506 ... silentbob you want a loving relationship but you don't want a committment it isn't worth the trouble getting past someones lesser points yet it is worth it to use them and hurt them and then ignore them and blow them off once you're done with them you're a great christian but a terrible person. 020506 ... killing time it's all so true. i'm guilty as charged. but what happens if i had a good time? no penalty box could shame or contain me. 020507 ... -{::ephemeral_arcs::}- narrow marrow silent sparrow secret serpentine smile distant crying child you're my lost little love you're my lost little one urgent arrow arcane echo my, my, my have we thrown together apart and together again we will scatter friends like the whistling wind you can see me wave same, i'm the same but if i did and i meet you there you'll hold my hand pretend you understand that i'm just one man still a boy perhaps simple silent humble human being we will scatter friends like the whistling wind you can see me wave same, i'm the same and eiffel towers and distant isles and ocean miles and mountain wilds and film stars and restless charge moving roaring soaring gone, gone, gone and with built-in lion ears i can hear you now -Smashing Pumpkins, Sparrow ::::: That says it all I believe 020507 ... phil sometimes you don't need something you want. Sometimes it is better to go on wanting. Sometimes it makes a difference. 020507 ... gatorbabe or maybe it's better to be able to stop wanting altogether (not like anyone can help it, besides maybe buddha... :)) and then they'll be able to say of me, fue sin querer 020507 ... phil did buddha teach no one could be like him or something, I mean get over yourself. 020507 ... blowncherrysaidshewouldntblather2nite they're not unhealthy, they're just no substitue 020507 ... lobsterman some would call it birth, some would call it suicide, hunger is intention, intention is existence. Sweet and Lo isn't sugar, it's better to just do without, if you won't admit your sweet tooth. 020507 ... candy ass jacking off rules! 020508 ... phil I never liked that stuff 020509 ... unhinged your coke my weed your blow my pot your nosecandy my green your pills my pills your coke my weed your blow my pot your nosecandy my green 020510 ... nick cave so i think i'll just act bored instead to contain the blood i should have shed 021120 ... p2 yes yes you are 021120 ... unhinged i want to be so trashed i can't recognize my own face or my own pain. all the time. i'm not sure how i got like this again. i don't even have anyone to talk to anymore. all_the_shit_falling_out_of_your_mouth and none of it pretty sounding. nothing about me is pretty sounding anymore. pyschological_withdrawal and depression and isolation. i'm all out of the only thing that makes me feel better. 051007 what's it to you? who go blather from