i_have_stood_here_before i ll always be inside_the_pouring_rain 020818 ... pushpins without a doubt why my strings yellow with age is beyond me but knotted to this packed earth i've got strings strangling me to the spot my stakes carving cornered holes in my feet as they drive down towards the grave of forgotten leaves and snow and seasons softening the tension of my weathered binding, I have stood here before and I made wishes on UFOs played with barbies and wrote love letters to little boys while drawing nearer the ground to my heart, I'm afraid to use scissors and so I gnaw, tasting the years of yearning. I have stood here before, but now I stray. 020819 ... jane in my dreams and they call it deja vu but i have to wonder if maybe it is more than just a glitch in the matrix 020820 ... power trip once you were here, and now you are gone. i wish i were gone too, but i cling to whatever shred of you i can. once the last of you slips through my fingers, i'll slip through the cracks. 031029 ... witchesrequiem All the damn lost soul boys! 031029 ... Death of a Rose just staring at the rain, am i one of those raindrops in slow motion gravity, readying myself to slam onto something, ground, glass, used needles, copper roofing, a leaf, hair, mouth, skin, fabric, sand, merge with the infinite ocean, lake, stream; will I freeze before I hit, will i be a whispered snowflake, melting when touched with warmth. i have stood here before 031030 ... ethereal I have stood here before Wearing these shoes Cloaked by nothingness Cemented to the pain I'm glued to you Frozen stiff Guilted into resolve Feeling absolutely ethereal I always stand here Looking down this illuminated well Filling it with unshed tears Denying every chance to breathe One day I'll fall And I won't be able to drown There will be nothing to catch my fall And once again I'll start to dig Still standing here I'm going nowhere Fast, quick paced and dying I'd have it no other way I have stood here before I'll stand nowhere else I like the way it feels to feel And I'm climbing these steps to nowhere 040408 ... ethereal I am always standing here * 040408 ... misstree i've stood on these grounds and looked sidewise down shrouded roads before. i've felt my heart murmur its madness, comforted by gentle strength and possibility's shine and knowing that even falling is a release. i've walked these halls a last time, and now is another. it's time to leave again. if at first you don't succeed, try again, it's worth the trip. 040409 ... pete this land is so familiar, but to my eyes it is forever foriegn 040409 ... Borealis once I stood, and now I crawl the rocks are sharper than I remember the dirt grits harder than I can recall in obsidian your name is carved, scratched into my soul.. or whats left of it anyway if blood can be shed in repentance, in reconciliation, in forgiveness.. then let mine flow to yours 040409 ... rage i have stood here before while everyone else stands on the other side this time i shall embrace_the_unknown this time im gone for good. 051120 ... thieums As I grow older I have those feelings of deja vu Feeling like I have done this or that Been here or there Met whoever or whoever But sorrow is always bright as new Although I have stood here before... 101202 what's it to you? who go blather from