i_am_small Dafremen r. dafremen i am small i see you there and could have it all something divine like ginger wine in a cup formed of my hands too sweet to let it go too magical to know too illogical to understand that all man makes is holy all that man makes is blasphemous in degrees yet it brings me to my knees pondering these hypocrisies for i am small and i cannot know it all nor turn away from the flame that lit my heart that led me to the light of day a sunlit brightness swept inky shadows of arrogance from my brain then gently whispered a refrain to bless my name and the light that touched my mind erased the pain turned upon a newfound joy embraced the shame and best of all taught me to know that i am small. 021218 ... girl_jane So I walk with my arms around my own waist to keep myself from warping, bending, or even breaking. I wrap my arms around my waist- fingertips to elbows. I am small, and your arms should be around my waist to keep me from warping, bending, or even breaking- from freezing, burning or even breaking down. I'm just little- I can't do it on my own. Come home. 030106 ... megan Elbows sticking out, ribcage exposed. tiny baby doll t's paired with flare jeans and flipped hair, the whole ensemble. innocent look on my face, strange words on my tongue, a boy perhaps kissing my lips. they lean on me, they rely on me, they know i can hold them up, support them. but i am crumbling. i feels sometimes as if i am falling to who knows where, and no one notices at all. maybe the sky is falling? does this happen to anyone else? sometimes i just feel so small and vulnerable, and i get real sad like. i start thinking that maybe he doesn't like me for some reason, even though he treats me like a princess. i feel as though i have no real friends, that i've been there for them when they needed me, and they were there for me during that time, and now they're gone. is this real? is it just hormones? it scares me, i wish i could just be light hearted and free again. sometimes i just want the world to be so perfect around me, and it lets me down when i realize that wishes make you weak. please someone hear me. 030107 ... *nat* but im strong ill get it on wit u if u want me 2. 030108 ... Dafremen Why is it that so often, the more they need you, lean on you and rely on you, the weaker they seem to think YOU are? Are you a pushover for filling THEIR need? They are the ones with the holes in their needs to fill after all. Their weaknesses exposed, their sadistic tendencies a feeble attempt to cover them back up again. Don't let them fool you Pisces. 030110 ... girl_jane I_am_small. Haven't you noticed? 031013 ... girl_jane hah...of course not. 031013 ... oldephebe said the gnome living in the cleft near my timpanic membrane... too too many syllables...hey where have all the funny words gone... sighs... 040626 ... AND WHERE HAVE ALL THE FUNNY WORDS GONE? 040626 ... twilightfox i feel like i am too small to see and too small to notice and too small to save from whatever is coming after me. and i am small compared to everything and everyone. and everything that ive ever done pales compared to anything else. and i feel like im drowning in a teardrop falling in a dream because nothing turned out the way that it seemed. and i cant be who i want and it isnt fair and im not the girl sitting over there drifting away... 040710 what's it to you? who go blather from