and_so_it_is hsg1437 don Juan matus: God provides according to our impeccability. That is, God gives us an opportunity to approach Him, to immerse into increasing happiness of mergence with Him—as we perfect ourselves ethically. 061228 ... the awful truth Ethical Perfection = ????????? 061229 ... stephshine hsg is not down with specifics. i've noticed. and noticed. 070218 ... ferna Today I'm wondering who is actually cut off here. I just heard your voice, always with a smile in it, always easy and free. Coming in on a weekend to get some work done. And I miss you. I didn't cut you off from me, I cut myself off from you. Because wanting you and not having you is worse than...than what. What am I in right now? I didn't change anything and I know it. It's all still there, you glib and me, God, me missing you so much I could just die, just sever, just gash myself to shreds and I am feeling so lonely without you I can't even put it into words. Your presence burns me. Your voice smolders in my ears. I miss your small, skinny body, your angular nose and chin. I miss your weird beard and your face when you're being all tiny and sweet. I'm so miserable and now I'm crying. I miss you so. 070324 ... unhinged the unfairness of life smacks me in the face again and soon even the bruises you left will also be gone and just the memory of you will have to do and maybe your_voice maybe that will help the way it used to 070324 ... Aw-shucks hello ! i have just found a mug my grandpa gave me after he died... it's saying my star sizn with a discription on it... whats funny is.. i'm sure it has changed... ! is that a trick? it's really nice and everthing... but when i get confussed and people do tricks and also lie to me... ...when i know they are ... they give me a migrane and they can also make me depressed ... and they can also make me cry almost everyday of my life. Monkey lied to me and i new it.. thats why i was sad last year... i didn't know what the truth was but ... i knew something was up. but his life is so hard and he wants to help so many people... i forgave him almost straight away but he still didn't listen or respect what i said... i needed a quite place not to go a back to the same place as if nothing had happened. it doen't matter any more because it is the past, which is always what he used to say to me... but i found it very difficult not to think of the past when it carries so much heaviness. i remember my childhood those were the days.. when you didn't have to worry about anything. I have a Great Aunt.. and she is amazing... she keep crystals in her home and loves telling me about the chakra colours and what they do to your mood. Its funny how people think that is all a load of bollocks.. actually... it works .. i'm telling ya. it's all positive ... anything that shines in the light and is full of colour has got to be a positive thing. something to do with Saturn... the moon eclipse.. not so long ago... is this a new era according to the star signs? are the star signs right... did they not get all these ideas from the egyptians...? worshiping the stars..? ? healers come together ! we need clarification. 070324 ... hsg iiwii 100122 what's it to you? who go blather from