my_turn_to_go Photophobe C Em Am7 Please don't remain here for long. I will not detain you, it feels wrong. F G E Am7 But I know its my turn to go. I'm wary of going first, but its the only way you'll know. C Em Am7 Please don't fein wanting me. This is all wrong, can't you see? F G E Am7 And I know its my turn to go. I'm wary of going first, but its the only way you'll know. 020407 ... Softly spoken You always were a whuss. What are you afriad of? Iamafraid Iamafraid Iamafriad. But what are you afraid of, except for me? Stand up for your heart, man. You're no Kevin from the wonder years. You know you're the shit, but you don't want to be hurt again. You're too happy being the_unloved. And you don't want to be alright_all_right again. Silly, really, when you have so much to give. 020411 ... Photophobe bleeding magenta and yellow Ok, who ARE you. Either you've done your research, and seriously, why would you bother, or you know me implicitly. Are you someone I know in rl, or are you some blatherskite with too much time on their hands? You could at least show your face. Its very easy to criticise from behind your armour. No email adress and a brand new name to speak with. Its great to have advice, but its impossible to understand without contextualising it, death of the author or no. So what you've written is meaningless, because I don't know who's saying it. Or rather, I can apply any meaning I like. But I'd like to know what YOUR meaning is, but I can't if I don't knwo who you are. Show yourself. Who goes there? 020411 ... thats_me_again so much to give so much to lose. must my death be the only way to prove my luv? is luv just an impersonal energy or real thing between us? r u really in luv with me? 020412 ... unhinged i feel like i need to leave here for awhile but i've never been able to for the past four years i've always been around but i'm saying too much here reading, re-reading, re-re-reading don't need it anymore afraid someone will find it that doesn't need to know blather_is_forever and i'm afraid that it will haunt me gotta run gotta go don't know if i can 040629 ... sameolme Please don't, I realize that I don't have any say or probably any influence and I've only read your stuff a little, but I miss real people, and you are one of the realist. 040629 ... sameolme If you plan on becoming a politician it probably too late anyway, so? 040629 ... unhinged and all i can see is the look on your face during one of our numerous break ups sitting on a bench at a busstop in the snow the look in your eyes when you said 'leaving you is a lot harder than i thought it would be' or walking up to your house that day and you saw your neighbors in the yard 'this is so embarassing' you grabbed for my hand and squeezed your neighbor looked horrified 'are you ok?' 'yeah. i'm fine.' still holding my hand, looking down at your feet i let your hand go knowing you weren't fine knowing that i couldn't hold on to you now it's my turn to cut_and_run you keep asking me if i'm ok after all these months of pushing and pulling how could i possibly be ok? (it's over now i feel it gone just beginning to realize the parts you took when i wasn't looking) 100831 ... f for friend get a rope tie a loop knot knot it to your garage beam stand on a stool put loop round your neck kick stool away and go to hell 100901 ... f for friend i did it and i got here just fine welcome to HELL. 100901 ... f for FUCK OFF well THAT'S just uncalled for. 100901 ... f for friend oh sorry? i didn't know there was an editor? BANG BANG YOU GOT A GUN? 100901 ... unhinged unhinged_in_seattle slowly_but_surely i'm getting my peace back 111112 ... unhinged (but it still makes me sad; i may have finally irrevocably left you behind but i still love you and hope you are ok) 130226 what's it to you? who go blather from