my_head_hurts Aimee I just got done with work... my head is pounding, and I think I'm getting depressed.. I think I'm gonna need to light my candles and relax tonight. I just wanna be held and cry my eyes out... I just don't understand it either... everything's going wonderfully and yet i feel like shit. 010719 ... Mulder don't cry your eyes out... they're so beautiful and so filled with hope. True, they may not always see the best parts of life, but i have witnessed first hand the compassion that they hold within them. seen them at their most vulnerable... looked so far into them i've felt i'd explode... and it has changed me. for the better. i see those eyes every time i close my own... for the last three years... they've always been there... not a day goes by that they aren't with me, comforting and helping me... i only wish to do the same in return... 010719 ... Mulder i'd hold you in a heartbeat though 010719 ... baby satan your head hurts?! that's because i started an argument in there! LEFT HEAD: Explain! Express! Get it all out! RIGHT HEAD: Um...no. I don't think I will. It's already known. LEFT HEAD: How? Did you already say it? RIGHT HEAD: No. It's just a given. LEFT HEAD: Bullshit! Do it! NOW!!! RIGHT HEAD: Okay...[creeping away slowly] LEFT HEAD: Hey! Get your ass back here! Pussy! Coward! RIGHT HEAD: Alright already [scooting back over]. Jesus. LEFT HEAD: Now do it! Do it! Right now!!! RIGHT HEAD: I am doing it. Christ. (this continues for the next forty-five minutes, or until the RIGHT HEAD completes its task. it's gonna be a fun night in the ditch, i assure you) 010720 ... pinkish always. ow. shit. 020717 ... sabbie tired_of_it_all 020718 ... yeah im gone and so does my throat. well, not exactly my throat. more like my tonsils. dammit, the area which you feel when you eat something really sour. below your jaw. my head hurting is probably from too much computer. i have no life, and this is where i spend 80% of my weekend. the other 20% is asleep or watching tv. why do i always do this? and i know i want to sleep, but i cant. i cant go to sleep this early. not now. and so i force myself to stay awake. reminding me how depressed i am. come to think of it, the rest of my neck also hurts. i want a boyfriend. or at least a really good friend who i can talk to. and i dont think ill ever get any of them. yeah, i always do that to myself. its become a habit to put myself down. the only thing im fairly good at is school. but i always feel like ill never have a good social life. even though i know i can be a fairly cool person(or so ive been told) i never actually believe it. i wish i had a bit more self-confidence. 021207 what's it to you? who go blather from